A Shadow Cycle

Shadow-Play

  I'm stalking these shadows,
as they stalk me back.
  They wait for my trip and
my fall, then they snap.
  The better I'm feeling, the
harder  they claw,
  as they force me to misery,
so I clench my jaw.
  Flailing about with emotions so raw
that they rip me apart
  and I cry as I fall.
These monsters, these demons,
  these creatures so tall,
that I lose sight of hope,
  yet remember it all.
It seemed in the past,
  and I certainly knew, that it
once was abounding and
  holding me through.

But where has it gone,
and when shall I gain,
the hope and the promise
and release of pain?
Yet so far of now only screams in my brain.
My soul needs a lifeline,
I'm sinking again.


Shadow-Swarmed

Swarming and covered by shadows again...
The end of redemption and traps of my sins.
I'm falling, still dropping, still
clawing at air.
Wondering when I'll wake from
this nightmare.
How can you help me, if you don't
hurt too?
And who can tell I'm hurting
much worse than you?
My options are thinning,
reversing my gains
until all that is left of my dreams are the stains.
Who can salvage what small hope remains?
I'm spinning in circles as energy drains.
Won't you please step with me?
Out to the deep?
And sleep in this darkness love,
forever sleep.