2000 Days

2,000 days you've been gone
I can say with every fiber of my being that I hope the ground you walk is your paradise
I hope that worlds worth of happiness fill your atmosphere
And I hope that you don't spend your eternity worrying about what could have been

I'll swim in the ocean of the tears I never cried
Because I know that your heart remains next to mine
On the days I think endlessly about you I wonder if you could only see me now
what would you think?
I wish you could see me now
See the wrongs I've made right
And the rights that I've made wrong
I miss you and the constant road of right you always showed me

With the fact that you've been gone
I've lost all control of myself
The monster I see in the mirror is not who I am want to be
It's just who I've become
But I swear you are my guardian angel
And someday soon your light will blind me and point me back in the right direction

I miss the family that fell apart
The family that passed away with you
But in the end I know that whatever happened, happened with good reason
And somehow we all grew okay with it in a sense

If you could only talk me through a heartbreak
Is the twisting in my stomach pain?
How do you know when your heart is breaking?
Things I would ask you if you were here.

But you not being here has led me to believe I walk the earth alone
That my other half is gone and sometimes that life itself is not worth it
Deep down inside I know that isn't true
But deep down inside I still think it is

I wish I could hear your voice
Feel your love
Taste the days of when you were still here
But all in all you're gone
And there is nothing we can do about it but pray
Pray that the world will recover from losing such a sweet soul like yours
And even though you're not coming back
You will forever live on in my heart