Lonely Soldier

I replay that day, I told you a lie
You walked away without a goodbye
I watched as you walked, your hands balled in fists
Tears down your cheek but I chose to enlist

I couldn't say what I wanted to say
I couldn't let you live life this way
Waiting for someone to come to your door
and tell you your husband died in the war

I would give anything to be home with you
to take back the day I told you we're through
take you in my arms and tell you the truth
every day begins and ends with you

my days are long, and nights are longer
and in my absence my love grows stronger
Its hot and its humid, but I'm doing my best
to make sure my mom doesn't put me to rest

Regret is knowledge that comes too late
and I knew I couldn't ask you to wait
I couldn't say what I wanted to say
I couldn't let you live life this way
Waiting for someone to come to your door
and tell you your husband died in the war

I have buddies and Sirs, and letters from home
Surrounded by people, but I feel so alone
I'm writing this poem, to tell you the truth
once and for all, its always been you.

Your smile, your eyes, you Laugh your kiss
just to name a few things I will miss
I hope someone informed you, and nicely said
while holding you tight "I'm sorry he's dead"

I served my country, I served for you
to honor and protect the country too
this ring is for you, I was a coward
if you want, I'll wait for you skyward

Talk to my mom, she knows it all
I did it to protect you, in case i would fall
and I did and I hurt you, I hurt you again
what I'm doing to you now, and what i did then.

I couldn't say what i wanted to say
I couldn't let you live life this way
Waiting for someone to come to your door
and tell you your husband died in the war