brainstorm

OH MY FUCKING LIFE I wish you would just shut up but I know you won't so there's really no point in wishing but whatever you can't stop me and I'll do it anyway and hope for the best because that's really all I can do with you which is pretty weird because you're always harping on about being reasonable and repectful and lots of other bullshit so maybe you should heed your own advice but it's not even advice but rather a direct fucking ORDER which gets blasted down my ear every day like the rooster crowing and waking up the whole farm like the little prick that he is but at least the rooster has an excuse for what he does and it's actually useful for waking up farmers whom I sometimes envy because while their job is very physically demanding they can at least set their own hours and it only really affects them if the farm fucks up which is good because it means that no one will hate them but they will have nowhere to live anymore which is obviously very bad although office worker drone type jobs could be good in the sense that if you fuck up yeah you might get fired for dicking around at work but at least you can probably just find another job anyway so really all is well and good but also it doesn't even matter for me because I'm gonna be a writer in LONDON so who knows maybe this piece of paper will be worth someone one day but probably only after I'm dead so yeah if I get famous then you're welcome man-who-found-this-piece-of-paper 'cause maybe it will bring you considerable wealth and let's face it you would have to be a cock to be ungrateful for that kind of windfall even tho I myself am often very ungrateful because I often feel misunderstood and as a result find it harder to relate and explain myself to people so maybe I come across as a moody bastard but it's really not my fault it's my stupid brain who has a fucked up need to be different CONSTANTLY and sometimes I think I would better without it or him and yeah I reckon I definitely probably have have a very masculine brain which would explain my stubbornness and desire to stand out I guess so yeah fuck you testosterone all my probs are your fault because I never actively do something with the sole intention of causing controversy unless the person really deserves it but rather it seems like the controversial action always seems like the best course of action without a thought for consequence or anything for example everyone might think I'm a total weirdo for writing this but fuck it it feels pretty fun now but I just hope i can stop soon but yeah I probably will be able to 'cause people don't get addicted to writing they get addicted to heroin and cocaine amongst many other substances but writing definitely isn't one of them but JESUS FUCK my cramp is really bad even tho I only just noticed it right now in fact it's almost as if it hurts BECAUSE I noticed it now wouldn't that be weird if your pain receptors intensified as soon as you became aware of pain anyway I'm gonna stop now because this really hurts GOODBYE