random assortment of my short poems |
HYPOCRIT’S STAGE Somewhere between waking and a dream, I lost my innocence One minute it was there, the it was gone, I haven’t seen it since Once bright eyes, glazed by the passage of time Fled are the wild ideals of youth they once sought to refine Brother sun paint the blue sky with the colors of your dawn You’ll find me running next to you before this twilights gone I’ll chase the wind over the miles the spirits laid for me The moon, heavenly protector, will present my destiny Long cold night, cousin mine, the family I have left Cruel skeleton hand of love, rip the beating heart from my chest Long hard days drag on, lonely evenings without end Where have you gone, now that I call upon you friend Close the window, slam the door, locked from the world in which I don’t belong Righteousness in on the warpath and the tribal drums are calling me along Pull your trigger, plunge your blade, no pain can touch me now March me onward into the flames of hell, in shame the angels bow No more lies nor deceptions grand to wipe away these sins Wake me when the morning comes, when my trial and all begins Place my sins upon your cursed burning page, written in innocents blood Stir the hatred pure and boiling into a powerful flood Never say of me my heart was weak, or brand my soul untrue Yes my trials were many, but my trespasses were few So lay me now in that sinners grave and curse my name with rage The only actor who dared speak true, upon the hypocrites stage. SPIRIT Sweet mysterious spirit, why do you haunt me so Your unforgettable image follows me wherever I go I cannot sleep, but dream of you, until the dawn returns Tell me spirit what have you done, what is this fire that burns Spirit my soul is enslaved, you are my captor now and forever There is no way for my heart to escape, your charms are far too clever You weave a mighty spell, which tangles up my mind Will you spirit return my love, could you ever be so kind You dance beyond my grasp, a sparkling star that cannot fall You my spirit dance too high to ever hear my shameful call It is a curse upon me to love you whom I cannot have Yet to see you for a moment, does balm my wound with salve Oh broken heart, oh desperate soul, why do they cry for you Why do I ache to touch your spark, to light this bonfire anew Tis brutal torment and melancholy hell, why do you tempt me so Is there no place I can escape your lure, nowhere I can go Dear spirit I bow in shame, bathed in the wonder of your beauty I dare not let you look upon me, for a monster you will see Twere my soul a purer place, were my being without scars I might stand a chance of greeting you upon your pedestal of stars My precious alluring spirit, how can fat be so cruel To tempt me with such beauty beyond my reach, leaving me a fool How I long to touch you, kiss your hand with these meek lips To wrap my arms around you, caress your face with my fingertips Oh splendid maiden, goddess fair, this humble soul does cry To steal the briefest kiss from you, before fate condemns this love to die Dance sweet spirit, dance away into the beauty of the night Alas my love could not reach you, though I tried with all my might. MONSTER Don’t look under the bed Don’t you dare open that door There’s a monster lurking round Listen close, I’ll tell you more This beast is but shadow You’ll never see it’s form It’s soul is cool as ice It’s craving something warm You hear a noise behind you You turn but nothings there You know that something’s waiting But your never sure quite where A chill runs down your spine Something’s getting close Close your eyes, hold your breath Prepare to face what you fear the most Open your eyes, take a look Will you dare believe it’s true What do you do toe to toe with a monster What do you do when that monster is you Laugh nervously if you must Swear “that simply isn’t me” But you never know for sure Where or who the monster might be. QUESTIONS Where does your heart belong, where do your loyalties rest Do you revere their god and country, and appear like all the rest Do you forsake what you feel, in favor of what they teach Do you deny who you are, to be closer to what they preach Do you hide away in shame, what you feel is truth Do you accept everything they say, despite their lack of proof They don’t like your kind, but they’ll take you as they are If you dare to stand against them, they’ll hunt you near and far Would you turn away your people, to be what you are not What you once proclaimed so loudly, how quickly you’ve forgot Do you wonder why the world you please will never let you in Does it wound you when they tell you your existence is a sin I wonder when I see you, why you even try Why live with broken wings, when you have the will to fly I look into your hidden world, then I look at mine I may not be what they are looking for, but I think I’m doing fine I shake my head in sadness as I watch you play the game Your justifying a world that won’t even remember your name ANSWERS I want to run with the wind, deep into the night I want to lose myself in darkness, till the world is out of sight I’m tired of following their rules, tired of playing their games I’m sick of trying to ignore their jokes and endless names I just want to be left alone, to be who I really am Don’t tell me to try and fit it, cause I really don’t give a damn Who made them the judge, why do they declare what’s right Why do they turn something so simple into a long and brutal fight their attitudes won’t change me, their words won’t alter the truth They may say I’m a mistake, but they don’t have any proof There’s no way I’m flawed, I’m not a danger to anyone All I want is to live my life, and walk with pride beneath the sun Why must I be ashamed of what I feel inside Why must I keep it quiet, why do I have to hide There’s nothing wrong with who I am, just one difference that they see Yet despite all the good I’ve done, they still use this against me. STOP THE CLOCK Sometimes I stop and wonder, what all it is I’ve got Sometimes it seems so easy, to just give up and stop the clock Life gets me so weary, sometimes I don’t want to go on I stop and ask myself, would they notice if I’m gone There’s no one there for me, I’ve never given my heart But then you can’t really give, what’s already been torn apart I don’t know what love is, maybe I never will All the years of my life so far, have just been time to kill When I look into your eyes, I don’t know what’s there I’m not sure if you hate me, I don’t know if you really care I’ve tried so hard to reach your world, from the darkness that is mine Trying so hard to catch up to you, but I’m forever falling behind So please give me tonight, while the air is thick and hot Stay with me for now, and for awhile we’ll stop the clock. ANGELS AND DEMONS Alone in this world, I’ll never find my place Consumed by the darkness, blind to the light of grace They speak but their words are hollow, dozens of empty lies I’m frozen by the glaciers of hate that drift within their eyes The angels bow and weep, over my long lost soul The demons dance beneath me, waiting to devour me whole I don’t belong with the angels, never have and never will I dare not walk with the demons whose cries are fierce and shrill They sing to me like sirens, of joy, of peace, of rest They promise all will forgive, the sins that I’ve confessed My heart aches for the tokens offered for my soul This day to day survival has taken a brutal toll My hopes are gone forever, there’s nothing left here for me The angels won’t let me in and the demos won’t set me free. YOU’RE GONE What’s left of our time together, just a faded memory Cause now your gone forever, where the hell is all the glory The long survivors tale leaves me cold and hollow When you left there was no trail, I don’t know where to follow What’s left of who we were, nothing really at all I wish I’d seen this far, the higher you climb the farther you fall Did you know at all I loved you, maybe you finally found out When I finally admitted what’s true, that I’d found what love is about It was far too late to tell you, I looked and you were gone When you left you never knew, my hesitation was wrong My heart holds you a special place, tinged with pain and regret That I never told you face to face, though I swore I’d never forget My promises seem empty, far too little and way to late My conscience won’t set me free, I’m tired of making excuses for fate No matter what they say, losing you wasn’t right I wish that I could pray, cause it’s already too late too fight Why can’t I have a voice in life’s ill scripted play Why are we so helpless, just living day to day If everything’s all right, it will still seem all wrong Life will never be the same, now that you are gone I DON’T I don’t want to wake to the dawn with you rattling round in my head I don’t want to dream of you when I lay down in my bed Your image haunts me through the day and chases me through the night What I feel for you inside is something I can’t fight I don’t want to be in love with a heart that can’t be mine I don’t want to gaze through the window with my feet behind the line I long for a simple touch, one precious moment with you Time is so eternal when my chances are so few I don’t want to keep hanging all my hopes on broken dreams But giving up my desire for you is harder then it seems I don’t want to wake from these dreams to what I know will always be All I want is to forget you and let my heart be free I really don’t want to see you here, tormenting me this way I wish I had never seen you, I wish you would just go away I don’t want to be plagued by a pain that shouldn’t be mine If only you hadn’t stolen my heart, maybe I would be fine I don’t want to run into you, but I’m damned if there’s a way I won’t You may think I want to be in love with you, truth is that I don’t. BEGGAR’S WISH Just for tonight, come down to where I am Forget they warned you away, just reach out for my hand Dance with me now, in the twilight and the rain Let’s try to forget we’ll never be this free again You’ve got their rules to follow, and baby I’ve got mine Why must we be on opposite sides of that imaginary line Stay the night in my arms, I’ll let you go at dawn Darling let me hold you tight, I swear I’ll do you no harm You don’t have to say a word, let your body tell me how you feel I’m not asking for forever, just one night to know you’re real Darling when you’re way up there, I wonder how you see me I wonder why you ever came down, if somehow it made you feel free Somehow way down here the worlds just not the same We simple folk aren’t so cruel, we just can’t play the game I don’t like breaking hearts, stealing dreams just isn’t my style Perhaps you could have learned my ways, if you had stayed a little while Just stay with me tonight, tomorrow climb back on your throne Grant this beggar one last wish, before you leave me alone. ALL I WANT You ask me how I’m doing, I shrug and say I’m fine I don’t have the strength to explain, and you don’t have the time All I want is a little peace, some time alone to meditate A time to feel at ease, to slip from beneath the hate All I want is a little truth, no more lies on my behalf Because I hear the words you whisper, and I feel it when you laugh Say anything you want, you have the right to believe And when your words offend me, I have the right to leave All I want is simple silence, we communicate better if we don’t speak I can’t stutter and play the fool when your voice starts making me weak All I want is to hold you, let your warmth ease my pain away There’s no more stones to hurl and no more games to play I want to tell you my dreams, and hear of your thoughts hidden deep To caress away your fears, fulfill the desires that you keep Don’t offer me the stars, leave them where they set Don’t offer me the moon above, just swear you’ll never forget Don’t hand me expensive things, just give me a promise that’s true Cause of all the things I could have, all I want, is you. BLUE BLOOD I’ve got blue blood running through my veins Fashioned of melancholy sadness, sweet and strange My world is shaded indigo, tempered by white, black, and gray Living under a clouded sky, never knowing a sunny day Blue blood is running through my veins, it limits my volume some I’m sensitive to happiness, I tend to shy from the sun I try not to talk too much, I believe that less is more I couldn’t tell you where I’m going, I’ve never been sure My mind is in the tribal sky, roaming with the spirit of the wild wind Dreaming of the endless peace, the place where my journey will end My kin ran these hills before me, my kind will run them forever on The legacy of blue blood will live on past the time when I am gone My sadness makes me who I am Some promise a cure, but I don’t give a damn My blue blood is my heritage, it gives me my name and my place It has colored my eyes and hardened the lines on my face It is my truth, my cross to bear, till my blue blood flows no longer The ice within my veins is the magic that makes me stronger My simple ways may seem bizarre and no doubt puzzle you But it would all be perfectly clear, if only your blood were blue. I NEVER I never said goodbye, I never turned away I never knew you’d leave on that rainy day I never slammed that door, I never said those words I guess what I never did doesn’t replace what you never heard My heart never strayed, my tongue never lied But maybe all you noticed was that I never cried I never raised a hand, never forget a date The one thing I never should of forget, I remembered a little too late I never left you in the rain, or forgot to laugh at a joke I changed everything you thought was wrong, now I don’t even smoke But there was one thing left that I guess I never knew That you would have traded the world to hear me I say I love you. NEW LIFE A mountain too high to climb A river too deep to cross A love beyond my reach Tell me what is the cost What is the price of a dream Does happiness have a receipt Can I lay my cash on the table And purchase a life complete Will the luxuries cost me more Does it include a state sales tax Does it come with a guaranty If it isn’t what I want, can I give it back I like the one with the house and car The career, the dog and the kids Do you have any left in stock Have there been any higher bids Can you deliver it to my house by five I’ve got shopping left to do I’ve got to get a new coat and shoes To match my life brand new LET IT BE Wake up America, a hell of a lot is going on I just found out today, another soul is gone She took her own life, rather then step up and deal Thoughts of the girl I knew echo “this can’t be real” Tell me that I’m wrong, that we’re not just stepping back That we’re not letting them slip away, we’re not losing track When you look at these kids, do you see what I see Young hearts craving hope, voices raised in a deafening plea We can’t let them down, we can’t just turn away Not with the death toll growing day by day Now you can point a finger, assign blame if you must But please don’t forget they are counting on us We all have a role in letting them down We have to stand up, turn this nightmare around One by one the pillars of the future are falling Don’t let them go down the road to the grim reapers calling Forgive their mistakes and lend them a hand They can’t teach themselves, we must help them understand We hold the keys to unlocking their doors We alone shape them and determine their cores Who will be filled with faith, courage, and hope Who will remain empty and turn to the rope The answer is simple, as well it should be We must fill them all, we can’t let this future be No more lost and empty souls, no more wasted lives No more answers found in pill bottles, gun barrels, and knives The worlds destiny lies in our hands, we must open our eyes and see Our future is dying, consuming itself, and we can’t just let it be. GET AWAY Wherever you wanna go, we’ll go I’ll follow you anywhere, that you should know We can go out by the lake and watch the calm blue waters Maybe sit on the swings, or ride the teeter-totters We can dance in the moonlight, to the music in our heads Or lay down in the grass and count the stars instead Let’s walk through the night, with no one but ourselves We’ll wear upon our sleeves what we’ve kept upon the shelves The world outside can wait, it’ll just be you and I Don’t worry about being proper, we don’t even have to try We can paint the town in every color, break every precious rule Don’t worry about what’s wrong or right, forget about being cool We can stay out day and night, all weekend if we want to We can do anything we please, as long as it’s you and me Who cares what they think, I don’t give a damn about what they say All I want is to be alone with you, and find a place to get away. GOODBYE As I watch the early rays slowly paint the sky I look back on the years and surrender a lonely sigh The things, I didn’t do, the things I never said The pictures I didn’t paint, the books I haven’t read The friends I haven’t seen in all the passing years The things I would have done were I not paralyzed by fears When you finally lose someone, you can’t help but wonder why Didn’t you say everything you should, especially goodbye I know you have to leave me now, there’ll be no more hesitating You must spread your wings and fly away, because the dawn is waiting We had our time together, that’s all I could ever ask In your memory I honor my promise never again to don my mask My tears I’ll hide no more, in the shadows I will not walk My tongue shall not fall silent to allow their strange, cruel talk I don’t want to lose you, but fates left me no choice Your face will always be with me, and I’ll never forget your voice How was I so blessed, to have known an angel like you Our time felt like forever, though our moment were few Your smile was like the sunshine, bringing light to the darkest day Your touch was like a gentle flame, melting the pain away When I held you in my arms, there was nothing left to fear I felt I could do anything, as long as I had you near Losing you is hard, but our joy was worth the pain Recalling those precious memories I know, our love was not in vain. STANDING ALONE When the darkness falls, I am standing alone I will embrace the night with it’s mysteries unknown I shall not waver, nor shall I retreat As my courage grows with every heartbeat There is no one to protect me, there is no one who would dare No one knows my inner thoughts, that never shall I share I belong to the shadows, for my soul they do surround I am master of all silence, to which my heart is bound No one ever accused me of being all that stable I’ll try almost anything, just to see if I am able I like nothing more then breaking all the rules More then once I’ve been counted among the fools You look into my eyes, but you don’t see my pain You wonder why I’m content, walking in the pouring rain The things that I have seen, live to haunt my mind If only I could erase the images, pretend that I am blind All the things I’ve felt, torture my weary soul The darkness I have touched threatens to swallow me whole I have walked through hell and felt it’s searing flames They have used me as their pawn in their petty sadistic games Where can I find peace, where can I hide my weakened heart Where is there shelter from the storms that are ripping me apart I feel the cold wind blow hard against my face I feel the driving rain try to slow my pace I have to run so far away To escape the pain I feel each day I’m tired of running now, there’s nowhere left to hide I can feel my battered soul turning to stone inside All that I want, all that I need Is someone to believe in me Whenever I stumble, or if I should fall Or if I just can’t give my all When I can’t wear a smile everyday I need someone who won’t turn away Because some times it’s so hard to try Sometimes it feel like there’s no reason why I’m asking a lot, of this I am sure Would anyone risk a soul so impure? NOTHING I’D RATHER DO I’d rather be in the jungle, lost without a clue Then spend the night in this room, if it’s without you Give me forty days of rain, under the blackest sky I could learn to love swimming, as long as you don’t say goodbye I’d rather face a great white shark Then find you gone when I wake in the dark I’d really rather do anything Then live without the love you bring I’d rather walk through a raging fire Then go without the object of my desire I’d rather walk to the ends of the earth Then pretend another could ever match your worth It may sound crazy, the things I’d rather do I’d rather do anything then be without you I’d rather sing off key to a hundred thousand listenersSO MUCH There’s only so much a heart can take Before it gives in and finally breaks There’s only so much time in our lives To get past the wrongs and find the rights There’s so much for me to do If I’m to make my way to you Rivers to cross, mountains to climb With no promise you will be mine If you asked the stars I would touch Anything for you because I love you so much There’s so much pain, just living day to day All my good intentions seem to go astray Somehow my mistakes are all remain So little pleasure for so much pain So much I would say to you Every single word of it true So much debris lying scattered on the ground From so many dreams that came crashing down So little strength left within my soul So few reasons left to try and stay in control So much darkness to see so little light So many days that gave way to lonely nights. Then face even one day minus your loving whispers I’d rather love too much and give you all my heart Then exercise restrain and offer only the simplest part I’d rather climb the highest mountain, no shoes upon my feet Then refuse to face your fears and make a hasty retreat I’d rather wade into the ocean and be swallowed by the tide Then ever surrender to jealousy, or not stand by your side I’d rather give my life, then fail to be faithful and true Because when it comes to loving you, there’s nothing I’d rather do. SO MUCH There’s only so much a heart can take Before it gives in and finally breaks There’s only so much time in our lives To get past the wrongs and find the rights There’s so much for me to do If I’m to make my way to you Rivers to cross, mountains to climb With no promise you will be mine If you asked the stars I would touch Anything for you because I love you so much There’s so much pain, just living day to day All my good intentions seem to go astray Somehow my mistakes are all remain So little pleasure for so much pain So much I would say to you Every single word of it true So much debris lying scattered on the ground From so many dreams that came crashing down So little strength left within my soul So few reasons left to try and stay in control So much darkness to see so little light So many days that gave way to lonely nights. |