After the Kiss

Kiss


As I sit here,
Brightness shining through the
Flipped up blinds,
Contemplating these small, lost
Dreams of mine that I second
Guessed could ever arrive.
Thinking I’m stationed in this spot in life,
With good people around me but
Treading, treading.



Ending each night with a glass
To soften the wishes,
The deepening sadness that
Permeated from my head to my
Feet.



Spoken words and
Text implying things
I yearned but never knew
Were my own possibilities
Anymore.
Not complacent and
Not completely worse for the journey
To nowhere
But suppressing the excitement,
Cherished moments of laughs
And flirting.



Frightened to drive toward Amtrak,
Pick you up,
And let myself live for the first time
In this intense world of freedom and
Fullness.
A break from reality yes
But a start of a new
One.



Sitting so long, watching, waiting
In anticipation bravely for you
To make the move for me.
One instance, one moment so
Commonplace that I have waited
Seemingly infinitely for
Occurred.
And it has changed me.