I wish/ have you ever......

Sometimes I wish I could wake up and not feel that awful, familiar ball of gut wrenching dread at the thought of another day. Another day of "I'm fine really." Another day of lies. Another day of the same people. And trivial problems and meaningless chatter. Where everyones talking and no ones listening. No ones looking and no one sees anything. Another day of feeling helpless, alone and trapped.





Have you ever had so mush to say that no matter how hard you try your mouth stays shut bcause your so scared of what might come out? Have you ever had so many thoughts churning inside you that you didn't dare let them escape in case they blew you wide open and everyone could see the real you? Have you ever been so angry that you couldn't look in the mirror for fear of finding everything you weren't staring back at you?