11.2.2010

i hope to never be in that place again.

         
There are some things better left unsaid..
Like how i still see you in my sleep
Or how my hope is fading
Everytime i put a gun to my head
'coz i can't stop the noise inside

And it's getting old,
Going trough this over and over again
Hoping the beginning or the end will change
You've always been good at
Turning my naive smile 
To brutal screaming
Killing the only innocence i had left inside

So strange, i think of her so much
She must have been the sweetest thing you have ever seen
Her golden curls
And cherry red lips
She made the world go away, didn't she?
I did feel the ground fading beneath me
Confusing dreams and reality
Trying to find some sense 
In all the how and why?

I see her when i close my eyes
She had fire burning in her eyes
Her smile enlightened the room
With no place for judgement 
She smelled like desire
Something you can never have, but always long for
She drove us both crazy

It's funny how all worries are gone
With the cold metal pressed against your head.
Ironically I'm killing all the love inside to live again
When did all the world turn gray?