Paranoid

Many many many people out there wish that I was dead
They wish and wish with all their hearts that only it was true
But here I am alive and well I wish the same thing too
That I was dead and they were too
How many out there have truly had enough?
Are you like me?
An enemy?


Ripened discontent can breed and breed
Yet it breeds again
It breeds as we do though not quite like us
Despair, depression, melancholy
Why am I so unnerved?

I wish that I could truly know that I am not alone
I like to think of myself as likeable
But deep down I see the rage, the sea of negativity
It wells at times and often overflows
I wish like those of Mesopotamia I could develop my own irrigation
Irrigate my hate
Irrigate my hate
Irrigate the deepest, darkest bouts of doubts about myself...




Finally a break from the chaos,
A split in time
A split where I know happiness and acceptance
I find it in your arms
No other man nor woman holds open true for me
Often nights I wonder what you truly see in me

Chaos chaos chaos - chaos reigns supreme
All the time I live is spent in my own anarchy
I live in this world of mine with two inhabitants
You and me it's me and you, It's us for eternity

Throughout my flaws of building up decay
Like the garbage man of my dark soul the wastely excess you reap
Reap the decay like a whirlwind rapes the trees of all their leaves
Reap the despair and wipe it away to never return again
Never return never return never returns until you're gone

In my bipolar world of chaotic mayhem you offer me some peace
Love is prozac lithium
You make my life complete
When I hold you in my arms and I am held in yours
For those brief seconds all my darkness it receeds

The wonder of the ages is not how or why or when or where
It's how do you love me?
How do we survive when we are so compatible but then again chaotic fury breeds
Like two true magicians we work ourselves to sleep
Sleep in each others arms tonight
Together in our dreams

Of all the things that lurk inside behind their slummy corners
This is the one that reigns the street as the savior police
Love shines through, my love for you
Is love enough I think it is as the same have I before
Love of mine, tell me now are we for forever or for more?

Of all the things I wanna say that lurk inside so deep
This is the one that reigns the street as the savior police
Love shines through, my love for you
I hope you know I love you
Yes, Darling I love you
Oh, Darling, I love you







We share a love that's so unique
Babe, do you see it too?
Insanity together swings in harmony