Alcohol

I never wanted it to be this way
You walking out
Me staying in
I never wanted to be this way
Scared and hopeless
Unloving and cold
But some things never change,
Some people just can’t get away

I sit in my own darkness,
Alcohol on my fingertips.
It poisons my heart, my mind, my soul.
Tears pour down and the paper is marked
Feelings tattooed on my flesh

I’ve tried and tried
One up hill battle after another
I’ve won and I’ve lost
I’ve lived and I’ve died
These memories just won’t fade
Their silence tearing me apart

I sit in my own darkness,
Alcohol on my fingertips.
It poisons my heart, my mind, my soul.
Tears pour down and the paper is marked
Feelings tattooed on my flesh

Crying and begging haven’t gotten me to where I want to be
Laughing and smiling
Dancing and twirling
Instead I’m here
Instead you’re gone
Instead the world laughs
While I sit inside and die

I sit in my own darkness,
Alcohol on my fingertips.
It poisons my heart, my mind, my soul.
Tears pour down and the paper is marked
Feelings tattooed on my flesh