to lie awake and stare at the stars and to think of a place in the distance so far makes falling asleep so much better where you are but yet i feel sick when i think of your face i want to spread your body all over the place and make you disappear forever without a trace with you gone ill be as happy as can be as i watch you sink to the bottom of the sea ill take back my life away from you bitch ill find happiness it will be my one wish ill find someone theyll love me for me and not manipulate me for everyone to see a person as crazy as me with a fucked up past and wont fuck me over like everyone else has shell lie next to me to gaze at the sky and no matter what shell never ask why shell always be there if i start to cry the things i want are not much to ask these are somethings they really need to grasp a deep connection must really be there and their actions have to show me they care i cannot look for it it just has to appear but it not happening is my only one fear and all my prayers go to a god that dont hear i just wish this pain will go away i mast take back whats mine thats all i can say ill find her one day in a distance so far and shell lay by my side as we gaze at the stars |