Need to ramble...

outside this life there is another.
now i know it exists.
i cannot say and i also cannot explain where it lies
or how one comes to find it. but rest assured,
it is there.

it runs parallel and continuously,
lying dormant and waiting.
not everyone needs it.
most live blissfully ignorant and it is much easier this way.
but for some;
for me, it is a place from which i travel
often.

i am unconscious of this,
and only know because of this familiar feeling that overcomes my entire body.
my soul struggles with the decision of
what realm to reside in,

and so this world's conscious suffers.
am i losing out on this life?
is my soul betraying this life?
or is this struggle necessary... to insure me of existence beyond here?

this mind believes that to be insanity, but develops the theory by itself.
i can no longer philosophize about physical things in this world
because i don't know if they do exist. they are a part of this realm,
but who is to say that is reality.

it may only be one option, or perhaps the fantasy of what is the true reality. or perhaps it is all simply perceived by this soul and manifested through this body and this mind. and this body and mind make things tangible...
how can one fear?
but if one does not require fear, does he not require any emotion? and i do fear this thought... so although the previously spoken words may be true, my mind and body accept this position as this 'reality.'