Love Lost

The story I want to tell
Is a heart breaking one
It’s about a love discovered
Lost, and never recovered

It all started when I was young
Every time he would talk, I hung
To every word he said to me
For he gave me what I wanted most

I was in love with love
The idea of having just one
The idea of being the one
Was I? No.

Nor did I have the clue
That i was his one
Foolishly, I thought this bad
Scared that I found him too soon

Though I love him
I broke his heart
Because I was mad
Because I was scared find love

“Not ready for a relationship” I said
I didn’t want to tell him
Ready for a relationship
I wasn’t ready for him

After the promises we made
And the feelings he had
I couldn’t bare
Never being around

But how could I say
But how could I see
But how could I try
But how could I survive

Friendship doesn’t work
I love him still.
I can’t do anything
I am helpless

I miss him
He won’t talk to me though
I don’t want to admit I was wrong
I love him

I find it hard to speak
I muster up enough courage to call...
His mom answered
crying

She says "He was
on his way to make
things better"

He was hit by a car
on the way to my house
my insecurities
cost him his life