I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted. So, I've decided to end it all. |
Dear Family Dear Friends I’m sorry I must go I am lost So very alone Don’t think of me No one did when I was still here. Don’t miss me Because I was never there once before. I’m sorry to cause you pain But mine was too much to bear. I’m sorry to bring this burden upon you But mine crushed me in the end. I fought for as long as I could But I guess it wasn’t enough I never thought I’d give in But apparently I was too weak. It hurts me to know how much you hurt But that just adds to the hurt I already have. Its not fair to make me to live Its not fair to let me die. I don’t know what started this But I know this is the end. I can’t understand why But I know it’ll be no longer. As soon as the deed is done I will then finally be free. I’m sorry mother For being so selfish. I’m sorry sister For being such a burden. I love you so much That’s why I must do this. I thought I could deal with this On my own. And this is how I’ve decided Would be the very best possible way. I have nothing more to live for Nothing left of my pathetic life. I am worth nothing Just another being in the sea of billions So what’s the deal If I subtract one. You won’t miss me After too long I won’t blame you I wouldn’t miss me either. I’m so sick of this I hate feeling this way I hate not being able to feel Or only feeling pain. If this is what life is I want no part of it A senseless, uncaring force Driving us along. Not caring about the outcome. So, dear family My dear friends It is time for me to go I love you so much But I cannot love myself. I can’t mean anything to the world When I don’t mean anything to myself Take care of yourselves Don’t remember this Don’t remember the scarlet painting Splattered all over my bedroom floor Don’t remember the gun lodged in my hand A symbol of the value of life Remember the fun we had Remember the memories we’ve made But most of all please Just remember me. Signed, your loving Daughter |