My Heart is Breaking

ARE you listening?
the words trickled up my throat
then bled onto the pad

I was JUS THERE
I was holding Anton's hand
FATHER!!!!!
HOW COULD YOU ALLOW IT
I'm SO mad

is he up there somewhere?
no little monkeys here jumping on my bed



they tried to escape, to run up my throat
but I wouldn't let them scream

if I can just be quiet
try and be quiet then the picture might go away
I don't want to be ugly no more I WISH ALL THE COLORS AWAY

Why couldn't Anton STAY