I wonder...

I wonder if you lie awake
Knowing my heart is yours to take
Wondering whether to leave it alone
Or to forever be mine to own

I wonder if you want my love
If I'm the one you're dreaming of
Or if I should give up my quest
Because I'm simply not the best

I wonder if you want me too,
See me the way I think about you
Or if you think we're just platonic
Just best friends, how ironic

I wonder if love isn't for us
If this is just some kind of lust
Is it written in the stars?
Or am I trapped by friendship's bars?

I wonder why I feel this way
And why you aren't pushing me away
I'd rather be a friend than a stranger,
And now I fear I've put that in danger

I wonder, if I can't have you to hold,
Will I find someone else before I get old?
Or will I never get over you,
And forever have my heart in two?

I wonder why I feel the need
To write these poems you'll never read
Why do I need you so much?
Why do I long for your touch?

I wonder if I'll never move on
If someday this feeling will be gone
Love might come and go, but friends are forever
At least I have what can't be severed.