Down On My Knee

How can this be?
I always thought that I could see.
Now I understand that I’m not truly free.
Who would have thought that something like this could happen to me?
I don’t ever stop praying that this won’t happen to thee.
I don’t quite know how to flee.
So instead I’ll plea.
I’m gonna get down on my knee.
In the end, now I know it will be He.
It will be He who comes to fight along side me.
His armor might not be bright.
But I’ll see him in the middle of the night in the moon light.
He’s no knight. But he is what’s right.
Something inside us will ignite.
Together we can win the fight.
Everything will one day be alright.
The entire world is suddenly polite.
This is such a delight.
I’ll openly invite this new found joy.
I can’t believe what I feel every single time I look at this boy.
Why do I feel that this is something that I will eventually destroy?
I could potentially make this work.
The only problem is I sometimes shirk.
Every time I believe I’ve screwed up, you give me this smirk.
It always makes me feel like you’re such a jerk.
But you can always see that smile inside me that lurks.
But sometimes I can’t find something that works.
Sometimes the pain I feel is too much to take.
I often feel fake.
This is something that I don’t think that I can shake.
I doubt from this I’ll ever truly wake.
I hope that you never have to feel this ache.
I sometimes think I can feel the earth quake.
There is just so much at stake.
I could have made a huge mistake.
I would have if I didn’t hit my brake.
I’m so glad that that was something in which I did not partake.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m actually awake or not.
It’s in that state of mind in which I still feel caught.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t always pure in thought.
It always made me so hot.
I don’t feel that I deserve to rot.
But that’s only because forgiveness is something that I got.
But it’s still something that I never forgot.
It happened a lot.
I just about tied myself in a knot.
The main thing that always got in my way was my pride.
There were so many times that I lied.
There was so much that I denied.
From my loved ones I tried to hide.
I had to decide.
I’m going to push all my evil to the side.
I’m almost at peace inside.
From the devil I will divide.
And with  God I will collide.