What will it take to inspire

What will it take to inspire
me to my potential this i inquire
the trick is i don't know who to ask
so myself i charge with the task
of finding the answers i seek
i know my mind is not weak
but this seems tlike a question i can not answer
yet it seems to eat at me like cancer
i should aspire to make myself comfortable
or at least make my life stable
but i can not get past why bother
even if only to help my father
is a better reason in my brain
but why do i regard myself with such distain
do i not deserve that elusive tranquility
that i seek with such futility
because i am not sure if i have earned
some peace or if i deserve to be burned
i am by no definition innocent
i never meant to cause harm must i still repent
for accidents partially caused by my hand
there is so much i may never understand
so much i struggle with is internal
i sometimes wonder if this confusion is eternal
so here i am i still dont know
and for all that pondering i have this to show