Doomed Land

So, you have finally left me and leave a huge crater in your place. For your impact has been cataclysmic and rocked the foundations of my world to the core. You have been such an ever-present element in my life, been part of my world for so long. You have always been there; like the sun in the sky. You are my sun; you have brought me light, warmth and life. Like the sun you may not have always been visible yet you have always been there. Now the sun has disappeared from my sky and what is a world without the sun? Just a barren and doomed land now fated to wither and die. No longer will the sky be bright, no longer will life flourish, no longer will I feel the warmth and comfort that your love could bring me. You have gone now to become the sun in some other’s world.

I stand and look around at what is left; the beauty of my world now lies in ruins, the great monuments of our endurance and time together are now crumbled and torn apart. The damage is an untold amount; too much for one person to comprehend fixing. Not even I can begin to put the pieces back together again yet I am the master of my own world but you, you were the force behind that mastery. Like the sun you were a great distance from me yet your power to penetrate my world and fill it with light and warmth was as if I could reach out and touch you. I look now to the blackened sky, heavy with doom and despair. My heart feels heavy with sorrow and intense jealousy. Jealousy that sits inside me like a bitter gall; I feel it start to spread through my veins, poisoning every inch of my being with no sun to burn it away and replace it with such tender yet passionate love.

My world was a wild and exciting place whilst you continued to shine. It was wild yet beautiful; only a love like ours could spread through my world with a wild beauty that made my heart race and my spirit soar. If you looked closely though you could see the tenderness weaving through the untamed landscape. All was kept alive by your vibrant spirit. Now that has gone; the passion has withered, the tenderness has grown thorny and dry. Yet the love stretches forth, yearning to find life from some small corner of my world but it becomes too weak to survive and falls to the desolate ground; an essence of sorrow fills the air. I watch it all happen before my eyes, powerless to stop it for you have already left and now you become the centre of someone else’s world. I have no light, no warmth and no beauty left in my world. I have no world left. Yet I must reach inside myself, reach beyond the stinging sorrow, the aching pain, the gall of jealousy and find strength. How can there be strength though when you were my strength, you were the rock I was able to rest on when the world became wearisome and cruel. No, I must find my strength now and start on my long, dark journey to find a new sun, to heal the crater you left in my world, to re-grow the landscape. Of course, it will never be the world it once was but maybe it can be full of life once more............