Being A Teen

Ever wondered what it feels like to be hated by the world? Ever wondered how hard it is to live with people who you can't trust upon what-so-ever account? Ever had the feeling of being lonely? This is my story. I'm Jessica and I'm sixteen I had three years of bad life. I don't know how any of these happened. I mean I was always the funny girl, the 'sport dude' and people always asked me for advice or support. Everyone saw me in this light. But then suddenly my friends started changing and so did I... I was 12 going on thirteen.
That was when I had to stop being so cheerful and when racism or being mistreated and misunderstood by others I became. That was then when I became who I am. I had hard years of my life living like this. I mean I had noone to talk to, I didn't trust anyone and I didn't talk about me to others. Everyone around me changed even my relationship with my parents. My parents and I became so distant. They didn't get a word of being a teen, they thought it was all just till we find our place in the society but not. Not all of us have found our place in society, not all of us know who we are, or some of us are scared to let our trueselves shine underneath- like me.
I can't let my true-self out. I mean it will be more ridiculous than ever. I am the best basketball player in my school, I'm the team captain, I am also good in volleyball- one of the best (as usual) and I do my studies on daily basis but people just think I'm sport-addicted. I also like to write but no one knows it and to draw. I know I am dumb but what can I do? It's not my fault people are not taking me the way I am and that noone understand me. I feel isolated, deserted by everyone. I found who I am but I am afraid of being who I want to be or I was.
Because now- 2 years later I am not just the best basketball player but I am also the volleyball team's best player. I won several writting competitions which made me a big deal in my school and I work for the school's newspaper and I am also the main person who has to be at every student-teacher meetings about what should students do. Now I have a great self-esteem, I feel good about myself whenever I look myself at the mirror or from the side of what others think of me. I feel a whole lot better. I am helping younger students to find who they are, to stand for themselves and become who they want to be. My relationship with my parents is better than good. I've proven them that they can trust me, that I'm no longer that small little girl who sits in the corner alone not bein able to talk about herself. Two years later I am the lucky girl who has all she wants. Life goes on no matter that there'd be days even years when you'd be down and have miserable lonely days and suddenly you become who you are and you're proud of what you have achieved. I am lucky is all I can say...