Hold Me

Hold me
Tickle me
Too scared to live
Too scared to die

Death seems preferable
Yet frightens me to the core

Were there a way to slip out unnoticed
That would be preferable

Like my friend tried to do
He forgot how significant a human life is
And everyone else forgot how insignificant a human life is
Until death

Death shines light on life – exposes its true colors
Its significance

We help each other find meaning

I saw their tears when you died

They would have tears like that for me too


I wish they didn’t
Cause then I could slip out unnoticed
Unnoticed
Unnoticed

Why can’t I be let go unnoticed

I toy with you, death – I entertain how I could entertain you
And yet this gut fear I can’t let go
I cannot get rid of

That pregnant pause at the end of a poem or song
When it’s time for others to say, “Niiiiice. “
That is how it is at the end of a life
They stand quietly throughout
But when it ends
Well, then
Then you simply must
You have to say something

In death maybe others would understand my life
The silence is so loud
The insignificance so significant
There should be more
Something is missing
What is missing

A star bearing a black hole in its core
It shines brightly
But would shine more brightly without that awful, empty core

Why do we suffer?
Why do we cry?
Why do we live just to suffer
get old
and then die?