Lonesome

Prompt:Snow provokes responses that reach right back to childhood.
~Andy Goldsworthy

Snow stirs doleful feelings 'til today.
My mind retraces back to my childhood
Of cavorting in the snow together.
Tears roll down my eyes thinking of those days,
When I muse upon your purported love,
That once illuminated my darkness.

I am engulfed completely by darkness,
Finding no shoulder to cry on today.
My heart wrenched, dreams shattered, by your sham love.
I am deceived by my love of childhood.
In unbearable sorrow, pass my days.
Christmas has come without us together.

I sigh when I see couples together,
I am enveloped with total darkness.
Darker than nights are my nigrescent days.
Memories, my only friend, today.
Grown up as an orphan since my childhood,
I wanted to find solace in your love.

You used to lob snowballs at me with love.
Such fun we used to have together.
You promised to marry your friend of childhood,
Ample joy you gave, erasing my darkness.
All my colorful dreams turn pale today,
Haunt me, my remembrances of those days.

In sheer delight, ecstasy passed those days.
Slowly between us grew a bond of love.
Who knew you would abandon me today
And with that sly minx spend time together?
I am plunged into an abyss of darkness.
Revert me to my joyous days of childhood.

Your treachery crushed my dreams of childhood.
Oh, how I pine for those sweet, golden days!
Oh, how I crave for light in my darkness!
Oh, how I want your affection and love!
Oh, how I wish that we were together!
Alas! a pall of gloom shrouds me today.

Since childhood I have never found true love.
Those days I want back, our being together.
My darkness not effaced, shrouds me today.

Form: Sestina

Sestina
The sestina is a strict ordered form of poetry, dating back to twelfth century French troubadours. It
consists of six six-line (sestets) stanzas followed by a three-line envoy. Rather than use a rhyme
scheme, the six ending words of the first stanza are repeated as the ending words of the other five
stanzas in a set pattern. The envoy uses two of the ending words per line, again in a set pattern.

First stanza, ..1 ..2 ..3 ..4 ..5 ..6
Second stanza, ..6 ..1 ..5 .. 2 ..4 ..3
Third stanza, ..3 ..6 ..4 ..1 ..2 ..5
Fourth stanza, ..5 ..3 ..2 ..6 ..1 ..4
Fifth stanza, ..4 ..5 ..1 ..3 ..6 ..2
Sixth stanza, ..2 ..4 ..6 ..5 ..3 ..1

Concluding tercet:
middle of first line ..2, end of first line ..5
middle of second line ..4, end of second line..3
middle if third line ..6, end of third line ..1