Locked Up

Everyday I wake up behind these closed walls wishing I could stay asleep, but though I wake up having to face this harsh reality, eyes getting watery, staring at my little girl in a pic that I can't even see, praying to god saying please don't let her grow up to hate me.
I could never imagine a pain like this, feeling so depressed, missing my babies so much holding the pictures close to my chest, pacing back and forth saying "how could I put myself in this mess."
I know my life will never be the same how could I ever be happy, with nowhere to go, no one to hold, I'm just a man with no family.
I've been put through hell, my heart filled with pain, locked up in jail, trying so hard to hold back the rain.
I know one thing whether the suns shining or whether it's night time, baby day in and day out, 24/7 you're always on my mind.
I keep asking myself why me, why this, am I cursed, begging god to forgive my sins every time I go to church.
Thinking how my life changed and how I lost the ones I love it hurts, my heart starts beating so hard feel like it's gonna burst.
I'm just a hurt man and right now my life sucks,
2009 has been so bad I have had the worst kind of luck.