Song Inspirations

An e-mail to a friend 9-22-09
Subject: Six Dice and a story

Hey there.

I chuckle as I think of my memories of Six Dice.  The drummer I had named Garrett who played in my  band Next Exit had quite a heavy rock sound. I suggested to him that he needed to also play in a heavier rock band. He did. He joined up with Six Dice. A few months later I was looking for a bass player. He referred me to Rick who was playing in the Six Dice band as they were developing their originals. Rick showed up in my driveway one night, and as my garage door went up, I saw him standing there, and my heart began to race. A few weeks later he asked me to go to the movies.  We went to see "Walk The Line." I went to many practices and concerts with them. Rick and I dated for a few months. I was crazy over that man. We determined and told each other we were not going to fall in love with each other, but it happened anyway. However, his ex-girlfriend kept harassing him. While we’d be together, she’d call and he would talk to her. I told him I don’t play second fiddle and was certainly not gonna deal with him continuing on with her.  There were other bad habits he had as well, but yet…….yeah,  I still loved him.  It was the “bad boy” in him I guess.  Then he broke my heart with going back to her after all.  I'm quite certain he wanted to move in with me. I had it made he said, a great job, my own place, music room, etc, so what’s not for a music man to want, right? Well, stubborn as I am, I wouldn’t let him move in.

Then the day came when he wrote me an e-mail that he was going to go back to her. He broke up with me, saying he was sorry to break my heart, blah blah blah.  That only put my songwriter  brain in gear and on the way home from work that day, I wrote the song called Bad Dream. You can hear this on my Myspace and get a much better impact.  I wouldn’t admit my heart was broken back then.  That was three years ago. It’s better in the long run because of his other “issues.”  As old lovers usually do, he came back one day not long after that and told me he’d realized he made a mistake.  I said, “Yeah. You did.”  I turned on the stereo and put that song in the CD player.  He listened with quiet awe. He said, "That's really good!" As he pondered the lyrics, he said, “That was written about me, wasn’t it?”  I said, “Yep. So, you see, I still got a good deal after all.”  I didn’t let him back into my life either, though it was very tempting.

But still, I haven’t been in a relationship since then.  After losing John being killed by the tree, then meeting Rick and him tearing the other part of my little bitty heart out, I just haven’t had the intense NEED of having to BE with someone to be happy.

My songs, Bad Dream, Cold Night, Long Time Coming, Until You, and others are about these lovers, all musicians.  I feel like Willie Nelson sometimes.  I need these people only to have something to write about (not really). Until You, tells of someone I love deeply even to this day.

I truly have a desire to love and be loved but until someone can manage through the maze to get to what’s left of my heart, I guess I’ll forever be the lonely, smiling woman watching everyone else hold hands.  It would be magnificent to have someone hold hands with me again, and hold me tightly around my shoulders while I listen to their heartbeat. But, oh well.  (The song “When Will I Be Loved?” comes to mind!!!!  I guess I should sing that one too.)

What a life we musicians live, huh Dicky? 

I hope to be there to hear them and hang around their wives again, but if I’m not, please tell the boys from Six Dice that Vicki Lynne said hello!

Just another lonely heart,
Vicki Lynne