My Missing Light (part 2)

My missing light part2

Day by day, hour by hour, suffer after suffer, and an endless pain, and finally I forget you after thousand tears and after millions thoughts .i did it and finally I forget you, I was lost without you, how could you leave me alone in this breathless dark after I used to be behind your warm light !?i said that I’ll never follow any light anymore, yeah I did, but now am going to follow the same light.

I can see it, it’s there! something take me to that light, no, hell no, I want to stay here, but I want to go too, I miss it so much, and I really sick of watching it , I want to reach it, I want to feel it,I wish I can, I have to try harder this time maybe it’s the last chance, no I cant trust it again, first time I got throw all the sorrows, maybe this time I’ll lost forever.

Maybe it will leave again and I will live with my painful regrets, No way, I must be crazy if I did, maybe I am, I swear to god if I reach that light I will be in heaven, but that light left me before maybe it will do it again! I cant believe what I’ve seen.

Oh my god my heart is burning and so lost between my soft light and my shadow in that light, lost again, I will never find myself, I wish that I was blind before that light returned , why did I saw that light again? Is it my fate is it my destiny ? what to do? Where to go? I really wanna do what I learned before that light before I have to think by my brain not my heart.

I cant, I really cant forgive me, the only thing that can helps me or kills me is my fate ,fate, oh my fatei I forget about it, please take me to the right way, am sick of following my desires, and tired from my lost soul, am freezing again, am cold, too cold.