Faded Away

I suppose I knew our friendship wouldn't last.
But the short year was full of memories.
I didn't know it would hurt so bad.
And I didn't think it would be your choice.
You've been in and out of my life so much.
You'd think I'd be used to it by now.
Trust me, it still hurts just as much.
I guess I shouldn't be hurt so bad because you don't.
Then again, you have other friends, unlike me.
So I guess I was just a breeze that floated by you.
It's still hard to accept.
I've lost so much and I thought you'd understand.
And try to be there as much as you're able.
Slowly, you're fading.
Slowly, I'm grieving.
But I do not blame anyone.
Well, maybe myself.
Maybe if I would've tried harder to strengthen our friendship.
But a person can't live on "what ifs" and "maybes".
So, I'll watch you slowly disappear from my life.
And I'll always be here, waiting for your return.