Help Me Now

Help me now

All these things you’ve told me
Past experiences
Former lovers
Friendships long gone and forgotten
It all makes me sad.

The sadness from all your stores
It’s overwhelming
You’ve ignited a fire deep inside me
Changing who I am
Changing what I want for us
Slowly killing me inside
Only to give back sadness and pain
I want it to stop
I need it to stop.
These aren’t things I want to hear
But then again
Who does?

I’m not here anymore because I want to be
But because I’m lost
Everything I use to feel
It’s all left me
Only sadness, pain, and hatred
Have all replaced the ashes
Of the raging fire that destroyed me
All of this,
All of this sadness, the pain, the hatred,
Building up, just waiting to be ignited,
To burn me down once again,
To take control
Only to build me up
Around something I’m not
To only live for hatred.

That’s not me
Its something I don’t want
I don’t need it
Help me now,
Help me overcome what I have become,
Help me destroy and dismantle myself,
Only to rebuild myself
As someone better
Than what I once was
Help me now
For I can’t do this on my own
Help me strive to overlook
All the small things
And to forgive for past mistakes

Help me…
Help me, be me.