Recovery

It's five in the morning and once again I'm up
two hours since going to fill my water cup

Of course, I have to think of you
and that "family" you had me believe was true

I gave you all that I had inside of me to give,
for a dream I thought we both wanted to live

But I was simply a part of your plan,
it's a painful truth I can barely stand

Why would you hurt the only one,
who was there for you when your life came undone?

Did you just pick me out of the crowd and say,
"that's the girl I'm going to destroy one day"

Did it kill you to see someone happy and on top?
Well you've won now-I'm broken, I've dropped

How can I trust what any man tells me,
after I swallowed your deceit so easily

I can't even love someone and truly feel,
secure that their affections for me are real

To protect yourself, you had me crucified
those horrible lies you told..I'll never understand why

And I really don't want to try anymore
No matter what you did to me before

I just wish this all would go away
Hopefully I will recover from you someday

and the look on my child's face when I said
that everything I had with you is and always will be dead