I dont even know how to describe this, just read please. |
A yearning, an ache It's a wild and crazy rush It's tolerable, for this second Never comfortable, not even for a moment A continuous cycle Will I always be caught in it's grasp? Traveling the circuit forever and a day Through the thin and the oh so inviting thickness The monster in my head screams to be let out But I keep the key hidden From him, but even more so from myself Because somehow I always find a way to let him simply escape It roars through my body and smashes around in my head Tormenting my thoughts and clouding my brain Everyday is different. Should they be the same? Is it so sick to have a monster in my brain? Who is he, this infuriating man? What is he? Does he know he's on my land? This used to be my home, my turf, my place to get away Yet now it is invaded, but I don't dare to even tell you You think it's some clinical, solvable case Some little scratch on my record Saying you know and want to help Giving ideas and trying to comfort while my beast is asleep Sadly, it won't stop him from hearing I don't want ideas Nothing said can comfort I was able to bury the monster last time Wasn't that enough? Weren't you proud? Or was that just a facade? This isn't a disease, this isn't a disorder. This isn't something to cure from the outside I don't have a problem, although sometimes I feel I do It's a choice like anything else And this one is mine to make I've decided I will stop this I will get rid of the monster Just you wait and see You'll be proud of me once more |