I Wish I Hated You

You were my best friend
One of the only people I could talk to
I always waited to see your face
I always waited to hear your voice
I always waited for you to love me

For me it seemed like everything
You lighted up the sky
When everything was pitch black

But then you stopped
Stopped talking
Stopped listening
Stopped looking

But sometimes your eyes glanced
And when they did
I saw longing
Longing to at least say something

But every time
You just walked by
Like I meant nothing to you
Like I wasn't even there

You broke my heart
With each step you take
To walk by me

You were the reason I got up in the morning...

Now
Your the reason I cry
Your the reason for the nightmares
Your the reason for the burning
And the cutting
And the bruising
Your the reason I want to leave this world
And never come back

And with every dream
You kill me
You drown me
You strangle me
You shoot me

No matter how much sleep I lose
No matter how many tears I cry
No matter how many times you kill me
No matter how many times I swear I'm over you
I stop

Because I love you
I'm in love with you
And yet
You don't love me
And I will never know your true feelings
Because you don't open up

I opened up to you
Look what happened to me
And yet
I still love you
I still love you


And for that
I wish I hated you...