Alone

Alone

I chose you,
I thought you were the one,
I trusted you,
I felt safe with you,
I felt loved for the first time,
I now feel betrayed,
I don't trust you,
You lied to me,
are you still lying to me?
When you look at me,
are you thinking of her?
When you hold me at night,
do you wish you were in her arms?
Are you waiting for the day to walk out on me,
into the forbidden love you longed for?
Even though we are two,
I feel alone.
I no longer feel at one with you,
now there is three,
me, you and her.
Am I weak to stay?
Am I strong to act as if nothing went wrong?
You say you love me,
You said you loved her more,
Why can't I walk out the door?
Why won't you talk to me?
I hate you, I love you,
I don't know what to do.
I am frozen in time,
afraid to move forward,
I embrace the past,
it only happened a month ago.
My world crumbled apart,
I can't let go of the hurt,
It hits me in the face everyday.
My tears fall,
for something that I don't even know if
I want it anymore.
I trusted you,
I had respect for you,
I felt safe with you,
Trust fell into a million pieces, as shattered
glass upon the ground.
I never trusted a liar or a cheater,
and now you are both of them.