Hello or goodbye?

I’ve been through so much shit in my life,
sometimes I just feel like lying down to die
Feel like everything’s against me,
feel like I’m doing everything wrong
I don’t know how much more I can take
I don’t know if I can hold on
to this thread I call my life
but am I strong enough to say goodbye?
or will I once again give in
go back to my old habits
say sorry for something you did
just to keep you
just to keep everything okay
Most of all I feel like running away
Leaving everything behind
cause this can’t be my fault
I can’t take it anymore
getting yelled at all the time
being hated and ignored
being left behind
Feel like leaving all of you behind
ignoring and hating you
so you can feel my pain, too
But see, I’m not like you
I always try to do my best
try to make everything okay
At least I can admit if I was wrong
something neither one of you can
So I’m just gonna let you do what you feel like
but not leave you behind
If you want me back, I’m there for you
I don’t expect anything back
But hell, don’t do this to me anymore
you’re making me sick and sore
of life
so, I’m giving it up to you now
Do we say hello again or goodbye?