Three Poems

I hate nights like this...
the ones where I lay in my bed
or I walk into another room
the ones where I see our pictuers
and the tears start to stream

the nights where I miss him
and I just want to see him
to hold him and to kiss him
to hear his voice and to curl into his arms

the nights where given one moment I start to cry
and I brush tears away
only to have more fall

the nights when i dread going to sleep
dread going to bed and turning off the light
and laying there in the dark

I hate nights like tonight...

*****

Somedays its all I can do
when I am missing you
to roll out of bed and
stumble through my shower.
Eating is a chore.
Work, it never seems to end.
all I want is to head on home
but even then
it doesn't end.
I'm all alone
tired beyond imagination
but my mind keeps going
I do all I can do
I read, I write, I watch television
it doesn't do the trick
so I take a hot shower.
And there with the water streaming down my face
my tears they start to roll
hot and salty.
I just pretend its the water
and those sobs aren't coming from my chest
and that today is not the day
when I'm just not that strong.

*****

We are loving from a distance
circumstances they are keeping us apart
I think about you daily
and always keep you in my heart
I worry and I wonder
faithfully I wait
some nights its not that easy
my heart it starts to ache
I'm loving from a distance
patiently waiting here at home
I'm loving you from a distance
its the only thing I know
The distance between us
it won't break us apart
our loving from a distance
keeps us connected heart to heart