If only it had never happened.

MISS MY BABY- Babe I know that I’m ready and I’m not going to push you in any way



[BabyBoy] - I know and I know I’m ready and that your not going to hurt me I trust you and that you’ll stay



MISS MY BABY- Yes of course I’ll stay you know that if you do get pregnant I do not want you to give up the baby I will be with you and take care of you and that baby I’ll move there no matter what my parents say



[BabyBoy] - I know you will babe and I know that you love me and I love you and would you really move here like if they said no??



MISS MY BABY- Yes I would if they said no I would walk out the door and come there



[BabyBoy] – you would really do that??



MISS MY BABY- Yes I wouldn’t leave you I love you so much babe



[BabyBoy] – :) I love you to babe



MISS MY BABY-



[BabyBoy] – We are coming to get you and your brother this weekend and I’m staying the night at your cousins house :)



MISS MY BABY- Ok we’ll wait till they go to sleep and then sneak up to my room and then ya ;)



[BabyBoy] – Ok :) make sure you have protection just in case to cuz after last time and me freaking I know I’m ready this time



MISS MY BABY- it will be like last week when I was here only funnier and don’t think that you need to do anything for me cuz I know what you went though after last time and this is not about me I’m not going to push you in anyway ok baby and I will bring some but if I cant get any then can we still?



[BabyBoy] – I know you wont babe and I’ll be ok cuz I know that this is the right thing and I want you to be my first cuz you said I would be your first and we are in love and everything will be ok :) and ya we will cuz I know everything will be ok and work out



MISS MY BABY- k good :) I’m going to go to bed ok baby I love you night



[BabyBoy] – ok night love you to





That was the conversation I had with my well ex-boyfriend over four months ago. We had talked about having sex before and were going to the first time he came and I stayed the night at his cousin’s house. Instead we didn’t get that far I got scared and started to think about after and if he would go back to his hometown eight hours away and just get on top of some girl there. I decided not to that time but then we talked about it and it sounded better and better every time we had talked about it. We have had phone sex before and that was safe with us being in two different states and it seemed odd but I knew he was a guy and needed it so I did it anyway. I had talked to my mom about what she would do if I got pregnant one month before that conversation and she said, she would be there for me and the baby, would have problems getting past the fact that her youngest daughter would be having a baby and wont get to do all the things she wants, and babies don’t have babies. I started to feel ok about having sex with my boyfriend after going out for three and a half month about eight months ago, then him having a girlfriend there for three, but he came back to me and I know he loves me more then her because when they were going out he would always tell me he loved me and that they broke up, even when they hadn’t. I had trusted him and thought about that night the entire time and talked to him the whole way to get them. We were meeting at their grandparent’s house, we had three hours and they had five.



MISS MY BABY- how close are you guys we only have one hour and we get there



[BabyBoy] – We are here and have been here for ever why can’t your dad drive faster??



MISS MY BABY- Idk and I can’t wait to see you and hold you all the way home cuz my aunt knows about us and doesn’t care as long as it’s not bad in front of the kids



[BabyBoy] – Well I guess I should tell you know that her boyfriend came and so did his three sons and your dork of a cousin is making me sit on your lap …… again lol :)



MISS MY BABY- What are you serious well if I don’t like him i’ma walkin out



[BabyBoy] - No babe you cant do that to me you need to stay for me :(



MISS MY BABY- Ok I’ll stay but only for you and if his kids bug me I’m going to kill them



[BabyBoy] – They don’t die tho me and your cousin and her friend have tried over and over it doesn’t happen and your aunt says you better not do that or you’ll be sent home



MISS MY BABY- ok I wont babe and we are almost there I cant wait and is it ok if I give you a hug and we just make it a small one so no one thinks anything?



{BabyBoy] – Yes I want a hug lol and I cant wait either but its going to feel so weird cuz we had to bring a van and you me your cousin and her friend are in the very back and they will not stop telling me I have to sit on your lap lol



MISS MY BABY- lol I’m ok with that :)



[BabyBoy] - :) I love you



MISS MY BABY- I love you so much baby



Well they got there and after sitting in the van waiting with his cousin and her friend and him we finally left all ten of us four in the very back and four in the middle. I sat on his lap and then we both were tired and so put on our jackets and hoods, listened to our iPod’s and he fell asleep really fast, I slowly drifted in and out. Just laying there looking at him and thinking I can see myself with him the rest of my life and how he is really good with kids. I knew that being with him would be fun it always is and I know that I was ready. Or thought I was ready I started to have second thoughts about it all I mean what if I really did get pregnant how will I feel I’ll be alone. All my friends expect me to get pregnant even if they say no I would be fine with it but that will never happen to you your not like that. But their eyes tell something way different, they are saying your like that and we know it, everyone know that you have had sex so many times and are surprised your not pregnant yet. So I just decided not to listen to what they were saying and listened to how they acted and what their eyes were saying. I knew I had my babe anyway and he is all I would need me and the baby I would stay in school and so would he we would be with his aunt just us three. But I knew I wouldn’t get pregnant that stuff doesn’t happen to me not on my first time. When we got home after dropping off his aunts boyfriend and sons we went and ate, then home we all took a shower and then his cousin and her friend and his little brother wanted to watch family guy because she had got the first season on DVD for Christmas. So we were laying down stairs and he was laying in my lap we waited and waited for them to go to bed, his aunt had gone to bed hours ago, they fell asleep one by one finally they were all asleep. I leaned up and kissed his neck and said they were all asleep, he checked and then looked at me and got up. When we got to his room he laid me on his bed and we didn’t even talk about anything, protection or what was going to happen it just kinda happened. I was so scared and then after we were just laying there and I got up and got dressed, I knew if we were both in his bed in the morning with nothing on it would not be good. So he got dressed and found me getting a drink and we walked down the stairs and lied on the couch with everyone else and woke up like nothing happened. The next night I went home after we spent the whole day just hanging out in his room and the kids leaving us alone because his aunt said I was leaving and we needed time cuz if my parents found out about us my life would be over so fast and he just didn’t want his to know so that they wouldn’t let him come so we couldn’t see each other. So we were laying and he had his shirt off and I bit him just messing around and he rolled over and grabbed my arm and bit me. Everything seemed ok and I felt normal I had just got off my period when he came and so I didn’t think anything of it. After being normal for a week one morning he txt me and something seemed different about him, we hadn’t talked about that night and I really was getting worried something happened or went wrong.



MISS MY BABY- Good morning baby how did you sleep?

[BabyBoy] – Morning babe I slept good what about you?



MISS MY BABY- I slept good and great that night :)



[BabyBoy] – Ya so did I lol but did you use protection or what??



MISS MY BABY- No I didn’t I forgot but I made sure that nothing happened bad and your ok baby trust me you’re not pregnant



[BabyBoy] – WHAT!!!! You don’t know that at all something bad really bad could have happened!!!



MISS MY BABY- Baby don’t worry your fine



[BabyBoy] – If I’m not your staying right??



MISS MY BABY- Yes



[BabyBoy] – Ok so



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The conversation went on and then the subject was changed and I forgot all about it with in five weeks. After the fifth week my friend asked if I was ok and how I was doing, I didn’t tell her anything I didn’t tell anyone about that night I knew that if my parents found out it would not be good. Well me and her go off each other for our periods and we either start the same day or I’m after her, she told me she just got off and it must suck for me cuz I should be on, but I wasn’t. and hadn’t been feeling like I was going to anytime soon, I called him and no answer so I left a voice mail saying we need to talk now love you bye. He called me and said sneak out I’m here and out side your house just leave a note saying you went to my cousins she needed help and you’ll be home tomorrow so I did. On our walk there I told him what was going on and he said, “We need to call my aunt and have her take us to the store and get a test now!” So we did, I took it and as we sat there waiting his aunt went to bed and we were left alone to talk, we sat on the same bed where it happened and figured it all out we would call his parents and have them come here and now no matter what, then call mine when they got there and tell them at the same time. So he called that night and said its an emergency please leave now so they did after that we looked at the test, it said positive and I started to cry and we lied there and he held me and we fell asleep. The next morning we got up and I took a shower and then he did and we waited, sitting on his bed waiting and talking he lied kinda on my stomach but not to hurt the baby or me. They got there and I felt like he would stay cuz we were telling all fore of them together, the first thing that his mom said was your moving in with us you and the baby, his dad got up and walked away, my mom started to cry and my dad said your getting an abortion. My baby being him stood up and said no she is not she is coming with us, and took me into his room and said your coming we’ll go get your things toady and your coming back today. That didn’t happen I went home and waited and waited and they never showed up. I have got a couple calls from his mom asking how me and the baby are doing and wants to be apart of our life even tho he wont. Yes we broke up that week and I have been getting bigger and bigger every week, I stay up and cry as my baby will when it’s born. I will not let him be apart of our life because he walked out and hurt me when I was already hurting and I’m not going to let him do that to my baby.

I’m here today to tell you my story and hope you all make a wise choice I’m only your age and I’m four months pregnant and alone, Yeah I have my parents well my mom but I’m still alone and my baby is not going to have a daddy and a mommy. I’m not going to try to be both. I can’t do that I have to think about how I’m going to go through school and leaving my baby at home crying for me to hold him. Sorry I need to go and just………(gets up and walks over to her seat the instructor gets up and thanks her for being there that day at a clinic for all teen girls in all schools in her area. She gives this story up to them to say, “See the warning signs and you can fool around just don’t let it get that far and wait. So you don’t get hurt.”)