Nothing is as it seems

You want to breakdown
But you don’t
You want people to care as much as you do
But you know they won’t
You desperately want change
But everything remains the same
You seek out happiness
But you still feel shame
You want someone to notice
But they ignore the heart that bleeds on your sleeve
You wish you didn’t hold everything in
But you don’t know how to grieve
You search for the light in the blackness
But it’s almost impossible to find
You try to ignore unanswered questions
But they eat away at your mind
You search your feelings
But you don’t know what it all means
You turn a blind eye to the world
Because you know nothing is as it seems