Chapter 1-Government Princess

Chapter One-Government Princess

The Program

In which Eleanor introduces us to her new family and his/her new
life..

If you were to see me walking with my family and friends, you might
think that my life was wonderful. The life of what is known
unofficially in this country as a Government Princess. More beautiful
clothes and accessories then you could shake a handbag at, my monthly
pocket money has increased tenfold from what it used to be, a father
who loves me, although the same is not true with my so called mother
who put me in this position.

If you saw me, you would probably think that I was a beauty. I have
brown eyes, long brown hair, small but attractive-looking breasts. I
wear the finest clothes, and always a small amount of tasteful and
expensive jewellery. A small gold and amber ring, an amber necklace on
each wrist, amber studs in my ears, and a flat gold necklace, and it
is the necklace that I hate.

I can write all this down and get away with it, but if I were to try
and say it out loud the necklace would choke me, even kill me if I
really rebelled. It might seem like magic but in fact it is merely
one of the marvels of technology that our unlovely
government keeps coming up with.

My eyes really are brown, and the jewellery and accessories are real
enough, but my looks are a fake. My hair is a wig, a very real looking
one, but a wig. My breasts are pads inside a bra, and my body has been
padded expertly inside these clothes that I wear to make me appear
female. And I dread what my *mother* will want done to my body in the
long term.

I wonder what my friends would think if they knew that
everything I say and every move I make is all an act? That I hate
talking about boys and other girly stuff with them and that I long to
wipe the lipstick from my lips, shed my girl disguise and get back to
my parents so that they know that I didn't die after all.

I don't hate the boyfriend that I'm lumbered with. He's never harmed
me or hassled me or tried to make me do anything that I don't want to
do and he is content with kissing and the odd grope of my fake
breasts, which is just as well, as I have a penis. I feel very sorry
for him, because his real girlfriend is dead and I've been forced
into the role.

He's shown me in a hundred different ways that he truly loves me, but
he loves somebody else, somebody who lies in a grave under another
name whilst I waste my own life living hers for her. If he knew the
truth he would be horrified and I would not blame him.

Enough moaning about my fate, I suppose you want to know how and why I
became Eleanor when I was born a male and never wanted to change my
gender in the first place.

The Program.

My so-called mother is calling me to supper now. If she knew I was
writing this diary, I don't know what she would do to me. I will
explain about the Program tomorrow.

Chapter Two-Battle Royale

Battle Royale. Officially known as The Program. The two words nobody
in school everwants to hear, because once you're in this particular
program, you only have one chance of coming out alive, and that is
when all your classmates are dead. We all know that it exists
although we're not sure why, it's an urban legend whispered about in
out of the way places and hinted at in the media.

Everyone knows what happens but almost noone knows the details, and
the government likes to keep it that way. A few details are
deliberately released-we know how the victims died but not who killed
them. Once a year a class is chosen secretly by random lottery, and
that class is abducted by the army and taken to a remote place where
they are given random weapons and told to kill each other.

The survivor is paraded in the media for five minutes of fame
wearing a balaclava, and then is given a new house in another part of
the country and a new name and pension and vanishes into obscurity.
That much is made known, but the details of who killed who and the
reason why this Program is done at all remain a secret.

You might ask why every sixteen year old does not boycott school en
masse if they know that they could be kidnapped at any time within
the school year and made to fight their classmates to the death.
First, protesting against this government always has bad and
sometimes fatal results. Those who do tend to disappear for good.
There are microphones fixed to the CC cameras in the street so that
the police can hear one's every word- everyone knows that.

Also, we all need to pass our exams to have a chance of getting a
decent job, but lastly, nearly everyone thinks that it'll never
happen to my class until it does.

I thought it was a field trip until they introduced sleeping gas into
the bus, and I woke up like the others with a metal collar clamped
firmly around my neck. Surrounding the class, each of who now wore a
collar like I did, were soldiers with their rifles drawn and fixed
bayonets. At a table sat a plump and matronly woman who wore the
badge of the government on her lapel.

"Good evening, class 4C of Craigness Secondary School. You are the
lucky ones chosen for the Program of 2007, and I am Mrs Verney, your
instructor."

It took a short time to sink in. Sooner or later one of my
classmates is going to kill me, and I'm notgoing to come out of this
alive. I'll never see my parents or my girlfriend again. I'm going to
die here.

The others must have been thinking the same way as me. Some of them
screamed, two brothers broke down in tears and hugged each other,
andanother, one of the tougher boys in the class, tried to attack the
man and got a rifle butt smacked over his head for his pains. Then
she told us the rules of the Program.

"Listen up. First, don't pull at those collars, or they will explode
and take your necks with them. You have three days starting from when
you leave this building...to kill each other."

"You will each be issued with a bag containing two small bottles of
water, a small loaf of bread, a pen, map of the island where you are,
a torch and a random weapon. Every six hours I will announce two new
danger zones-should you enter one of them your collar will explode, I
will also tell you the names of the dead. Should more then one of you
still be alive in seventy-two hours from now, then all your collars
will explode and there will be no winner."

"Two minutes after you leave this school, it and the area for
fivehundred feet around it will become a danger zone, so if you were
planning on getting your weapons, joining up and attacking us, you
can forget it. You will fight each other, not the government. By the
way, your parents have been informed of your fate."

Thirty-one others. A one in thirty-one chance of life-there is no way
a weakling like me can win this. Even if I get a gun, I'm not going
to win, and they'll send me back to my parents in a coffin. My life
is over.

When she had finished and we were all staring at each other in horror
she looked at me, smiled and said, "For you, a different fate awaits,
if you choose to accept it. A fate that will allow you to stay
alive." I nodded and there were howls of protest from the others.
She turned to them. "Don't worry, the chances are that he'll fail
and be sent out there with the rest of you, and even if he succeeds
he'll probably wish he had chosen to fight. Now I am going to read
your names in alphabetical order, which is the order in which you
will leave the building once every two minutes. Once you go outside,
you are fair game."

I stood there and watched as my classmates walked out to what would
be their deaths, glaring at me with hatred in their eyes. Some ran
out as fast as they could, some strolled or strutted outside, one
stuck his finger up at me. When the last of them had gone, the woman
ordered the soldiers to leave the room and then turned to me and took
me aside.

"Listen up. The only reason why you are being given this chance to
live is because my Program this year had to be one with a single-sex
class. A couple of days ago I had an argument with my daughter, a
really bad one. She...she jumped out of the car...whilst we were on
the motorway. And..." She wiped a tear from her eye.

"Somebody ran her over and didn't stop. I showed my Government Seal
to the police when they arrived and used my position to prevent the
accident being reported. I had my daughter quietly buried under
another name. I told my husband that our daughter had gone to stay
with friends for a couple of weeks as she had planned to do anyway.
Three days later the police caught up with the driver and executed
him on the spot, but of course that did not bring my daughter back.
That's your job."

"My job? I'm male, for a start." "I know, I would have much preferred
a girl, believe me, but I gotlumbered with a single sex class for the
Program this year. I can't wait another year, as there is no way that
I could explain my daughter's absence to my husband. I love my
husband, and if he learns what happened to our daughter, he'll blame
me and he won't love me anymore. Which is where you come in."

"You can be issued with a bag like the others have and go out there
and who knows, you might even survive and return to your parents. Or
you can live my daughter's life for her. As her, and I mean as her.
You have the choice, go out and fight like a man, or accept a new
life as my daughter."

"I...I will do it rather then die, but I don't see how I can do
itproperly."

"Oh, don't worry, I'll train you properly. I want you to stay here
with me and watch the Battle, in between intervals of training for
your new life, so that you can view the deaths of your friends. Don't
worry, you'll find new friends to replace them, my little Princess."
Over the next three days, as my classmates fought and died outside,
and as their bodies were recovered, Mrs Verney taught me my new role.

First she taught me the basics, such as how to walk like a girl
without overdoing it, and how to sit in a short dress without
exposing myself and blowing my cover. I could hardly believe it that
she was teaching me etiquette whilst my fellow classmates were out
there fighting and dying but I held in my rage.

"Walk tall, you're one of the elite now, with a great life ahead of
you. When you meet your new father, you will tell him that you were
hit by a car crossing the road and were in hospital for four days,
but that you have fully recovered but that the doctors might want to
check on you later."

She drilled me as well and as repetitively as a sergeant drills his
troops, making me walk with a book upon my head, teaching me how to
walk like her daughter, how to adopt her mannerisms, how to answer
any awkward questions and what her daughter thought politically.
(Not, it must be added, that anyone in this country dares to talk
about politics much.)

Then she told me who my friends were and who my boyfriend was. "I am
not having a boyfriend! I'm not gay..." She took a control out of her
pocket and my collar began to bleep. I knew what they could do
because she had blown up an empty collar earlier in front of me. The
explosion was not large but it was enough to sever a human neck. I
got down on my knees and begged for her to spare my life, and she
turned the collar off.

She snapped at me "I've known your boyfriend for years and he is a
genuinely good person who really does love you for who you are. There
is no danger of him mistreating you in any way, and anyway, I am not
having a lesbian daughter. You will stay with him and make him
believe that you love him. If you so much as wipe away one of his
kisses and I find out about it, there will be trouble."

In between bouts of training, she would give me the reports of how
myclass were doing, and every six hours she would announce the deaths
that had taken place over a microphone system that could be heard
over the entire island. That night I considered trying to break the
lock on the room that she had locked me into. But if I did somehow
break down the door without being heard and escape from the building,
I would be unarmed on an island that held multiple killers who would
kill me as soon as they saw me.

My stomach churned as I thought about having to be with my boyfriend-
having to go out on dates with him, having to kiss him and cuddle him
and tell him how much I love him despite feeling disgusted inside.
And then an even more horrible thought came to me, that my mother
would sooner or later arrange for me to have the surgery that would
make me appear to be a real girl, so that my boyfriend could make
love to me.

If that happened even if I escaped I could of course never have
children of my own .I winced at the thought of being forced under the
surgeon's knife and nearly requested to be sent out to fight there
and then, but decided that Mrs Verney would most likely blow up my
collar.

Day one and two had been about all the little details but day three
was worse. That was the day she dressed me up. After making me strip
she made me put on a push-up bra with fake breasts inside and a kind
of girdle that would make my body appear to have a female shape. She
dressed me in a green shirt of the finest silk, with white trousers
and long brown snakeskin boots.

Then it was time for the jewellery. Amber clip-on earrings, an amber
ring set in gold, an amber bracelet for each wrist, an amber
necklace. Then to my relief she took off my collar. I thought of
trying to knock her out, saw the pistol on her belt and decided
against trying to fight.

I'll play along, was what I thought, and the moment I get out of
hereI'll flee to my parents and we can get out of town if need be.
Then my new mother fitted a flat golden necklace to my neck.

"This is a replica of the necklace your boyfriend gave to you-unlike
the original version, it is not only explosive but it has a few other
little things to keep you in line. It can shock you at the touch of a
button, and I can use it in conjunction with a small hand held
tracker to find out whenever you go. A little microphone attacked to
the world's smallest recorder monitors everything you say, so I'll
know if you try anything."

"It's time for your make-up. My daughter didn't use much of it
except at special occasions, but she used lipstick, and so will you."
After shaving me and using foundation to cover any stubble she
smoothed some pink lipstick on my lips, which felt all waxy, and I
longed to wipe it away. My new mother carefully explained how to
avoid putting on too much and looking like a clown, and placed a long
brown wig upon my head. When I looked in the mirror I was unable to
recognise myself. A young pretty well dressed girl stood there.

My mother handed me a white handbag. "You'll find in there everything
you might need in a hurry." There was a knock on the door. "Come in."
A sergeant walked in and saluted. "The Program is over, Boy 5,
George Nichols, won the game with seven killings to his name." "Bring
him in." "What will happen to him?" I asked.

"You know the drill. After being carefully checked for hidden
weapons, he'll have a few minutes of fame in front of the press,
wearing a balaclava. Then he and his family will be treated like key
witnesses in cases against organized crime. They will be rehoused in
another town under new identities with new, reasonably good, jobs,
and he will get a pension and a signed card from the President. If he
then speaks out and we find out about it, he will be conscripted and
sent to where the fighting and dying never ends."

I shivered when they brought George in. He had a small cut on his arm
and a look of terrible sadness mixed with anger on his face. He
looked me up and down but didn't recognise me as I had been disguised
far too well. They dragged him out and my new mother told me to wait
and left me alone.

I fingered the golden necklace and checked out what was in my
handbag. There were two lipsticks, a handkerchief, a mobile phone, a
purse that was full of banknotes and also had a banker's card,
various bits of junk and a diary, the one that I am writing in now.
She came back to me. "Open your mouth, Eleanor."

I did so and she sprayed something into it that made me cough and
choke for a while. "This will make you sound like my
daughter." "What?" The voice that came out of my mouth was that of a
girl my age.

"It was meant for something else entirely, soothing sore throats, but
wasnever put on the market because of the side effect of making males
sound female. The Government kept a small amount of it in case it was
ever needed for such a purpose. Now it's time for us to go home, your
new father and boyfriend will be waiting for you."

I must go now, my boyfriend is calling me to go out on a date with
him.I'm dreading it.

Thomas McGhie, known to all as Eleanor Verney.