pretty much this is about me... and how not-so-fun it is to completly screw it all up. |
I have always loved water. The ocean, lakes, swimming pools. When i was young i couldn't help myself; i loved to swim. I wouldn't even test the water to see how cold, or deep it was. I would just dive in head first, nothing to shield me, or save me. My mom always tells me that that is how I am in life. I don't test the waters. I dive into it and push it to the limits. In a lot of ways I look at it as a good thing. I mean, if you don't give it everything you've got, what do you honestly expect to recieve in return? On the other hand... most of the time life ends up giving me way too much in return, in the worst way possible. I am lying on my bed, just thinking about where my life has been, where it is going... wondering when this is all suppossed to begin. I'm twenty-two years old. I have been all over the United States... and i end up here. the butt end of nowhere, UT. Honestly, i know what you are thinking... "how much trouble can a girl get into, in UT. Mormon capitol of the world." Well...let me explain. I'm not entirely sure were to begin really. I guess high school is as good a place as any. I don't think of myself as a nerd... but really there is no better way to put it. I made decent grades, played sports, and was extremely active in church. I went to school in Pacifica, CA, minutes away from the cold, yet breathtaking ocean. The weather there is so perfect, all year around. The fog in the morning just lays on the city; you can see straight over it, but certainly not through it. My sister, Lauren, wa a senior when i was freshman. It really made that year easier for both of us. We didn't know a single person at that school. |