For You

I'm thinking about you right now.
And I'm crying.
You're probably with her...
not thinking about me.
I know we would never work.
You are the winter
  cold and bitter
I am the spring
  vibrant and full of life
As time passes you never fail to
suck out my joy and take my hope
-My very existence.
You kill me!
Yet i still love you.
Why?  After all you've done...
Why do i still fall so familiarly to your will?
You look at me and i can jump to heaven.
I've died for you.
You walk in covered in bruises
and can't see that I've fought for you.
You've been cut
and can't know how I've bled for you.
You're cold and can't change how
my heart has frozen for you.
Your eyes are blue and beautiful
but they can't see how I long for you.
How close I am.
That I'm yours.
Your words stay in my head.
Your kiss is on my lips
and you are in my heart.
I love you.  I don't know why.
You are the stone that pulls me under.
        Drowning me.
You are the fire that sparkles when I touch you.
        Burning me.
You ar the breaking heart that beats less each day.
        Killing me.
In this I have died for you since
my being won't let me be without you.
I should get used to the idea.
Being hollow.  Being alone.  Being dead.
I want your kiss.
I want your touch.
I want your love.
  I want you.
O stars... how i wish he wants me too.
Today you looked at me.
The feeling was so.... special.
Was it something?
I might spend my whole life pondering that moment.
Waiting for you to happen.
In this I've already given my life.
Bleeding, dying.

For you.