Lonely Knight

I can’t sleep anymore when twilight comes
There’s too much on my mind for rest
I wonder about the things that no one can change
It’s the little things that drive me up the wall
Things like how others may perceive me
I’m not sure why they consider me great
Maybe it’s because I come off as friendly
Or maybe because I respect others
Or maybe it’s just a big conspiracy
So many have told me I’m their hero
And I wonder why they think that of me
I’m a human being, just like the rest
I’ve never seen anything different about me
But somehow other people do
I have my fair share of sins and I’ve tried to atone
No one seems to notice any of my wrongs
They give me a feeling of being the greatest
That’s so much for one man to live up to
I don’t know if I’ve let anyone down on this
But how do I tell others how I feel
They seem to think I can’t bleed
I’m always there when they need me
They’ve grown attached to me
Is it because I’m optimistic
Or that I listen
Maybe because I don’t shed tears
No matter how many friends I have I can’t shake off this loneliness
There’s so much resting on my shoulders
Sometimes it holds me down
Some how, though, I get back up
I’ve always refused to give up
Maybe that’s why so many consider me great
But I’m not worthy of such a high honor
For someone to come up to you and tell you you’re their hero
When you’ve only spoken to them twice
It makes you think
How much influence do I really have
And the parents thank you for watching their kids
How does it make you feel
Or do you even know what I’m talking about
That’s a big problem for me; finding someone to relate to
I’m alone on this one
It makes me wonder
How they would react if they saw I had red blood
That it falls to the ground and doesn’t float
To show them that I’m not as invincible as they think
Just flesh and bone like the rest
And why do I even care about others
Is it because of my past
Or that I know what it’s like to have their feelings
Maybe because something inside tells me to
I’m not sure anymore
Why do I do this to myself
I know this is something about me I can’t change
But I feel like I have to be a different person around others
I’m obligated to live up to their expectations
I can’t let them down
Can you imagine how much pressure is on me
Do you see I’m not perfect
Or is this just nonsense to you
I don’t expect anyone to understand
They’re the ones who see me this way
Anything else isn’t believable to them
No, no one understands this feeling
So how do I tell others this
That I’m not what they think
I’m not the Man of Steel
Nor am I Incredible
I can be brought down
That I’m as fragile as everyone else
Only a slight touch can make me shatter
And that the wind can sweep away the pieces
Would you believe me if I said I’d give all of this up
Just to have someone that loves me for me
The man who can cry
Who can bleed and die
Not this lie I’m made out to be
Many would kill to have this much influence
But it’s not what it seems to be
I’d set it all ablaze
For that one person who honestly loves me
Who wants me to be happy
Because that’s all I want for them
True happiness
Maybe then I can sleep again