It Never Seems Clear

I can see her a thousand times and I could
never imagine my heart the way it is.
she takes something away each and everytime she
leaves me,
the meaning unclear-
the emotions kept only to myself deep inside
where is should be
I can't explain my thoughts to her
hoping they just vanish like the rest of me
somehow every time i hope for this,
but she's more than i feel and I know
a part of me that's reborn each time,
but unfortunately painfully and my heart just seem to remind
my brain every time the feeling i get when i see her everytime.