I wrote of my God given victory over a door of an addiction. |
"No Temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." Paul - 2 Corinthians 10:13 ESV THE DOOR I went to that familiar door and placed my hand upon its knob. Like all the other times before, my heart increased its rhythmic throb. I heard once more that sultry voice. It called me to the other side. It beckoned me to make the choice of passions pleasures to abide. She promised me fulfillment of this longing deep within my heart. (‘Twas lust that some confuse with love.) And I could hardly wait to start! "Shall I, again, indulge myself to ravish this forbidden fruit?" (I placed upon the highest shelf my conscience that I rendered mute.) I slowly gave the knob a turn and shuddered as the latch released. I felt desire within me burn anticipating this foul feast! Alas, a light sliced through my heart as terror took a hold of me. For once before this tore apart my darling wife, my family. I wanted so to close that door, remembering the awful pain and grief, my soul an open sore. Yet, loved I what I should disdain. The light revealed that beast within, a beast that clutched me in its pow'r. I saw this creature steeped in sin. It made my stomach churn, turn sour. "Dear God!" I cried. "I cannot fight and win against this thing I see!" That loathsome creature in my sight who pulled the door ajar was me! I wept, "Dear Jesus, only you can save me from this wretched door. Those who pass through find death ensues to life, joy, peace and love and more." I knew that I would be undone. And yet, that doorway beckoned me. In tears, I heard, "I'm here, my son. I've come to save and set you free." He put His arm around me as I laid my cheek upon His breast. I watched Him press His nail-scarred hand against the door that had me stressed. The beast grew angry when he heard the Voice that calmed the wind and sea. It screamed out, "NO! Don't say one word! Please go and do not bother me!" Then Jesus spoke, "For this I died and rose to live to make you new." With that, the beast fell, arms stretched wide In death, his hands and feet pierced through. With a soft “click,” I heard it close. My hand came free of that cursed knob Emotions deep within me rose. I said as I began to sob, ''Dear Jesus, bolt and lock that door and throw into the deepest sea the key. This thing I so abhor, I'm sick of it seducing me!" With both His arms He hugged me tight. "I'm sorry, child," He said to me. "This door that you must daily fight has not a lock, therefore no key. For if it did you'd have no need to put in Me your faith and trust. Until I come again, take heed! Learn to abide in Me you must!" He gently kissed me on my brow and said, "Fear not. Be of good cheer. MY peace, MY love, MY joy I vow to give to you when you draw near." |