Not long ago..

Past memories . . .



make    me        want to



smile



                and



                                cry.



Your face



brings me



                lightness and darkness.



When    you        smiled



ohmygod



                I still



nearly        faint



when I think about it.



But those sad words,



                                Ringing



In    my    mind.



And still



                after



rejection,



I



                yearn



                                for



                                                your



                                                                smile



Is it just denial, I am experiencing?



Are my feelings



so strong



that even after



you



refused           



          me



I still smile at thoughts of you?



I smile for you.



                                                Sad



                                                                smiles



The butterflies burst



                When you



pop        up          in            my          mind.



But before, also



                  quickly



                fluttered



                  down.



And I knew nothing of you



                                              Not a thing.



Only of your beautiful face, painful silence, and smile



                                                                                              That smile.



That face.



Ohmy..



Still        so          fresh    in



                my memory.



And        I        thank      heaven



for such a memory







It brought me



                such pain



to think of that yesterday







I also wish the hug



                                (though, out of pity)



                could have lasted



                          longer.



It was



                too        quick…



yet



so



        warm.