26 years

How can I explain how I feel?

When I'm not even sure myslef,

26 years have now gone by,

Yet sometimes I wonder, if I'm living a lie.

I've asked every Question,

And drank all the answers,

But the truth still eludes me,

Just who the hell am I supposed to be?

For four long years,

I've been locked in a cage,

Consumed with a raging despair,

Closing my eyes to all my worst fears,

I don't know if I'm angry,

I don't know if I'm sad,

I don't know what to think,

So in this shell of a soul I stay clad,

How can I explain how I feel,

When I'm not even sure myself,

26 years have now gone by,

Yet sometime I wonder if I still know how to cry.