I'll be Fine

Wrong decision, rocked with doubt.
Internal conflicts, show me out.
The drugs they heal, or so I say.
The drink it numbs, I'll make it another day.

Meeting two on the side of the road.
Took one home and set the mood.
I don't even remember her name.
Two months later I get the call.
I am to be a father, I feel ashamed.
I am to be a father and I feel the pain.

I can't even take care of myself,
How does she expect me to help everyone else?
Running circles in my mind.
Praying to God for a sign.

Take control, take my hand.
Cleaned up and I have a plan.
Back to school, Back to work.
Drugs are gone, I go to church.
I had two path's, stuck at a fork.

Four months later, it was all a shame.
Used me for money and a home.
The child was another mans.
Torn apart, wrecked with grief.
I turn to God, His voice is meek.
I turn to friends, they cannot help.
Then I turn to a mirror and find myself.

I was the target of a scam.
Needing love I became blind.
It takes me time to realize, I was only a man.
The mirror it soothes me, it is so kind.

I realize then, as I stare.
I do not need anyone but me.
I walked a fine line and came out pure.
I spend some time telling myself that I'll be fine.