Without Love

Personally, I don't know how every one feels but I do know how I feel. Sometimes I close my eyes and remember all the things that make me smile. Like the first time we had sex, how things just happen . A friend ask me if girls knew who they were gonna sleep with from the day they met a guy. I told him sometimes, I mean I never knew I was going to sleep with him. I mean he was just a friend, a friend I secretly liked.

I knew that I would love him since the first day I saw him. I tried to fight destiny but no matter what I did I ended up bumping into him. Finally, he made me happy, just to be around him, hug him, made me feel good. One day I was so depressed that I needed someone, someone who made me happy. So I go to him, we started to play pool, things just got hot in there, he bet a shot on marriage, failed, then another one on going out, failed, then one on a "real" kiss. I smiled, told him he wasn't going to make it and he did he made it. Well he made it, time for the kiss, his lips are so soft, the way he touched me was turning me on, but what I felt, scared me, I felt love, I feeling didn't want in my life, that something I was trying to get away from. I guess is true you can't get away from love.

I love him moments like this, moments that make me smile and remember love exist, his words, his smile, that all stays in my head, as a good thing, sometimes the wind reminds me of everything we use to do. His sex is amazing like something I never felt before it takes me to that special place some where I feel home, paradise. Just me and him. I love the way I would lay on him or he would lay on me after sex. I also loved the way sometimes he'll look at me and want more. His the only guy I trust and the only guy I want to have a lot of kids with.

I love him with out love I'm just memories and hope, hope that one day I get the strength to tell him I still love him. I see him a lot stay with him for a while, I mean when you love somebody every moments counts. I don't even want to think of the day I don't see him no more. We are just friends and I would like to keep it like that just to stay close to him. With out love I am nothing and doesn't take a scientist or or death to know this, it takes time of part from the one you love. Without love your nothing.