If this is possible

If this is possible.
Hotfuse-a burst of angry emotions usually in the form of words, is likely to be seen written in codes under passwords, on backs of paper with space and of course on a computer. These emotions can last anywhere from two minutes to twenty minutes any longer professional help should be sought :- ) 
Just close my eyes and make three wishes
1-          To never  feel emotions ever again*(IT A WEAKNESS)
2-          TO NEVER TRULY BE FRIENDS WITH ANOTHER HUMAN BEING(UNLESS I CAN BENEFIT)
3-          To think about myself and only put me first always and forever
Forget the wasted time I’ve spent thinking about what will happen it’s in the past if I have to be polite and pretty to be liked then its just bullshit, I’m not nice or pretty. I’m vicious and cruel and I like that. I THINK ONE TIME I was sweet and smiley and I was an idiot, people will tell me so. So I watched to see what people really where like and I saw so maybe now I’m worst than them and this creation I’ve created to walk among in my shadow protecting me is what I never did, now my motivation will have something to feed off of. I can’t apologise any more nor make excuses for my previous actions to be in this world you have to not be. So my hindered sense on realism was hidden in the back window watching absorbing every little thing it saw it barely missed a thing, I love revenge its bitter sweet for me. JUST MOTIVATE MY INNER BEING.

Close my eyes and wish for three things when I’ve got those three things repeat this action and wish for another three things I’m going to take baby steps, I may become one of the most hated women but theirs not much change their so I doubt that could turn me back.
Close my eyes and make three wishes.
1-train my self in my weaker advantages
2-take as much as possible for anything and everything possible
3-develop the new ---------------------. Ha-ha.
Motivation.
Don’t laugh don’t joke, don’t talk to me, I’m not your friend, I’m not here to make you feel better about yourself, I here to remind you of what you did to me and how every action has a consequence so congratulations , I’m here and I’m not going away for a very long time.
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