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Complete silence Just hearing your heart beat in your ears As you slowly begin to remember what your willing to do this for You begin to reflect and think about what you would have been Then you feel pain, the pain that you would do anything to get rid of That you tell yourself time and time again that you will not feel anymore. This is no ordinary pain It’s the pain of not being loved Feeling rejected that your worst fear has come true That you are worthless in all the words entirety That you have no one and that’s the way that its going to stay There are so many people around me that should not be happy while I feel this I wish they would show some emotion besides being happy There is nothing happy about life Its all something that we dream up Then one day you finally wake up and you realize everything is a lie… But you lied to me! No one else but you! You promised that you wouldn’t do this to me! Why would you promise something that important! Everything was exposed to you! You made me believe that I could trust you That you would make things better! always! And I believed you Like a stupid kid that is so fucking gullible Like you didn’t know that I was vulnerable! And now I cant get away from you I have classes with you and see you in the halls Even if I try to talk to other people you get mad that I want to know other people If I make any other plans with anyone you get mad But you can make plans with all of your ass buddies and don’t give a flying shit about how I feel You don’t even look at me Like I’m something less than you Less than you… Less than perfect… Less than something you should care about… Less than everything…. Echoing in my head as my heart beats in my ears As my lips turn purple and my eyes blood red And everything around me becomes nothing again And nothing becomes your answer to everything And that’s what I am… nothing |
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