Long time. No see

Long time. No see.

I know these decisions in life can be hard
And I know they can be cruel
But if you decide to lay with me
We can stay here forever and be happy dear
I just wanted one day with you
Why can't you see who I am
Why are you so scared?
Why do you push it away, when you know its real
And why don't you care about me?
I wander all alone, yes by myself
Wainting, waiting
But i don't know when this wandering will stop
I can't be by myself forever
I'm a speck in this world
And you don't notice me
No, i'm microscopic to you
And i sit and i wait
And i wait and i pace
And i pace and i cry
And when i cry, you don't know
Cause you don't know what you do to me
And what its like behind those closed doors
No, you're not allowed in there no more
And why do i feel like its me?
Defective, dumb ol' me
That caused the quake
The tumbling rocks
Hit me in the head
Please, knock me out
Let my dreams haunt me
My many sleepless nights
They chase me and harass me
Makes me put up the fight, like screaming in a sound proof booth
Cause i'm always wandering
Always wondering
And what does it do to you?
No, you don't hear me
You never gave me the chance, to make myself clear
Shush, little Brittany, I have to be right
Like an adult to a child
Someone who has no idea what they are saying
But they pretend they do
So will you please stop this
End this here, right now
Shall i continue on with my wandering, or should i settle down?
This pacing makes me tired
And the crying leaves me weak
Will you stop it with the nightmares, or continue on with this till i wake?
By then it'll be too late...