Lori

Love is what had made me anxious to start the new day;
Jealousy is what helped me push it all away.
Lori was my dream and my reality,
an angel, my love, the only other part of me.
She is gone now, she left me because of me;
no cheating, no yelling; no hatred that i could see.
My emotions engulfed me in a way I wished i a fire would;
I lay on bed; the darkness my hood.
I pushed her away. she did nothing wrong
Now there is nothing. not any love song.
The darkness takes me in, shelters me.
Reminds me of what loneliness is like.
I remember her crying as if it were last night.
The flower in her hair stayed bright as her smile
quickly faded.
I knew our relationships end was soon fated.
Tears burn as they cut down my face
I know me to be my own disgrace.
What seems a lifetime my phone lay asleep
after a while, it mocks me to sleep.
I wait for it to glow, for her name to be on that screen
but i thought, why would she call someone who she thought was mean.
I awoke to the sounds of birds and lawn mowing;
not to my surprise, I had not awoken to ringing and glowing
Gone forever, she could possibly be.
It could have all be prevented, had I not been me.