Everything over Us

Today I decided to end it
To set myself free
Because like my girl Fantasia said
“If you don want me then don’t talk to me.”
I guess I’m afraid of getting hurt
And caught up at the same time
Like getting pulled over on the road to life
And being force to walk the line
Right now, I’m at a standstill
Because I’m searching for the road to choose
To see what path to take
In the direction pf what I want to do
Everything that I write always ends in rhyme
I’m thinking maybe its inspiration
Or maybe just my mind
I keep saying I know what I want
He is what I know so he is what I want
Then why am I constantly going back and forth
Saying, No! Lisa don’t
I’m young so I get lust confuse with love
And love confuse with lust
I’m still trying to figure out why
When it’s outside they call it dirt, inside dust
So at the end of the day
I choose everything over us
And like that another relationship is ruin
Like when water touches metal and it rust
No lie I thought of you as a good person
And somehow I still do
If ever I had to do it over
I would definitely pick you
I’m going to miss everything about you
From your hair down to your jeans
Cherish every month we spent together
From February to April and the months in between
I’ll still think about you
Especially when I hear a certain song
I’ll never let another call me, “Lil’ One”
Because that is who I was to you
And what you did for me
I don’t think another could do
I know you’ll move on and forget about me
You will go on to someone new
And another female will love my nigga
So I can’t help but wonder who?
A part of me will be jealous
Because you once belong to me
And it’s my own fault because I chose to end it
Today and set myself free
I was afraid of getting hurt
And caught up at the same time
So I chose to end it
Especially in rhyme.